I Don Not Think Love Exists.. It Is Bull @#$%^&*
@huddoggzntheehouse (66)
United States
October 6, 2008 7:31am CST
I got married a few weeks ago, it was the happiest day of my life, I felt so good and was so happy- I told no one I was getting married, I had no bachalor party didn't want one we just went to the court house and said I do- I was so happy I was about to cry, but by being a man I held back-We had a little honeymoon- Now the honeymoon is over, I am ready for a divorce-I went to my best friends house, and informed him of my great news he was happy for me and couldn't believe I was married, so we celebrated- We had a few beers and a bottle of Champaign- I promised my wife I would not drink again, but I did, she has no time for me, she is busy in school and work, I can't even get in touch with her on the phone, she has two cell phones and there is always an excuse battry is dead, phone not on, I was out of area the same BS that everyone says, mine is always on battery is always charged so she can contact me via cell phone or land phone, I can't get her- So I went and celebrated with my friend, all we did is watch movies, talk about life and religion and laughed- She got so mad she told me tht's why she didn't answer the phone, than while at work called the police and they swormed the house ransaked it, looking for a gun and drugs, all they fiound was a toy gun her daughter bought her, and all the drugs they found we perscription drungs in her name I am the one who got it trouble- In stead of saying ok honey I understand you are happy and had fun with you friend she went evil- therefore I do not believe in love I believe she lied to me I will never trust her again- She tells me everything that happens at her work as a case manager for people on parole, why peopl get fired, when they will be drug tested and she is to keep it confidential- How can I trust her or beleive in love, she is back stabbing and has no ones back-She will turn on you in a hart beat if you do not live her way or agree- I beleive all woman are the same and LOVE is DEAD, as Chivialry-
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@grammasnook (1871)
• United States
6 Oct 08
Aww man it sucks that you have felt betraded, and sometimes the two people in love are not just meant to be together. Although I must say you did promise her that you would not drink but you did. One thing I would suggest is not to blame your wife for your dtinking. I do not know if it is out of hand, but evidently she thought differently. I believe she went to a great extent and from what you have written that was far further than she had to go.
You say she goes to school and works? It sounds like she wants a great future and sometimes we suffer when we love someone. We support them.
There is such thing as love we see it everyday, some get thier feelings hurt but it is important to work through that to bond a marriage. Marriage and love go through major up and downs in life it isnt always wonderful
I have been married for over 20 years and let me tell you that I love him even more than I did many years ago. We have gone through so much and we conquered it as a couple.
I wish you and yours lots of healing and success in whatevery you choose.
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@grammasnook (1871)
• United States
6 Oct 08
Hi Joker,
Evidently this relationship is volitile and just isnt meant to be. I am sorry for your pain as well as his. One who drink has lots of internal pain and is trying to forget it. Walk away and heal yourselves like your face healed so will your heart. In order to go forward in life you have to find a way in the future to forgive him. I say this from experience.
Good luck
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@berkee (46)
• Ireland
6 Oct 08
This is a bit bizarre! You must have married her for a good reason, there must be something that made you fall in love with her...?
It seems she has some very serious issues, she clearly does not trust you and the things this leads her to do makes you not trust her, this is a vicous circle. Unless you both get some help, maybe marriage counselling, but definately some good counselling for your wife, and maybe anger management due to the incident with the cops.
Dont give up on love, it exists, but every couple has their problems, you gotta give it your best shot.
@joker4poker (56)
• United States
6 Oct 08
Wife here... Long story made short. He has a drinking problem and if you go back into his discussions you can see.
He has abused me and I forgave him. While apart for 3 weeks he begged me to marry him, and he said " I'll do anything, I'll stop drinking, I swear."
I forgave him again. Like I said, my face is healed now but my heart is broken.
@huddoggzntheehouse (66)
• United States
6 Oct 08
I appreciate your comment- Yes ther are two sides to a story- I drank on Friday, She was pissed off and on Staurday I was talking to my mother, and on the computer when the police dogs busted in and helicopters were flying ove the house- I felt like I was living in LA again- But thank you, I will try
@damsel_prerna (863)
• India
6 Oct 08
heyy i am so sorry for you..
i understand wht happend with you was bad..
not all women are like this.. try communicating with her again..
dont loose faith on love.. its the most wonderful thing on earth..
tc..
@habichuelo (3100)
• United States
6 Oct 08
im having my doubts on love too....
i still feel love for my exwife who i dont see for more than 3 years now...
i always thinking of her (MILDRED) she used to call me (DINO)
we last like 7 years togheter we never had babies,,i know 95% of the bad stuff were my foult but i had changed in this 3 or 4 years alot,,,,im another man have another life,,,but still inlove with her,,,i would love to atleast see her in person and have a long talk with her....
'''i feel love,but,,,does someone could love me like i love her?????'''
@damsel_prerna (863)
• India
6 Oct 08
heyy why dnt youget in touch with her and try explaining her things.. i am sure everything will be fyn..
tc..
@grammasnook (1871)
• United States
6 Oct 08
3 or 4 years later? and you havent seen her. You can call and see if she will talk to you but chances are is that she has moved on and matured to become the person that she really likes. It may work but it may not I would hate to see you have your hopes up and come crashing down.
You talking to her will make yourself feel better about some failures that have happened in your marriage, so that may clear your mind to continue on with your life.
I wish you love and happiness
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@joker4poker (56)
• United States
6 Oct 08
i will never tell you anything again, i will never trust you ever again. last time i respond to this site. you are evil.....this is not the whole story. be honest with everyone!!! or can you?
