just have to get these things off my chest

i feel i get refreshed after having my chocolates. And best remedy is Meditation, try breathing exercise, it will help you balance and handle depression.

It's good that you said these things if they are bothering you. I wish I had some way or words that could help you. I have times where I feel like I am sinking and I just can't pull myself out of the hole. When things get like this, i try to set myself a little goal or do a craft, just so that I can feel like I've accomplished something, even though it's as basic as washing all the dishes or making dinner. Then i try to set another small goal, and I keep trying to do little things until I feel like I can manage bigger things.

I know where you're coming from...I'm in that situation right now but quite different from yours. I don't have a job, financially in debt, my mom and I haven't talked for a year now, same goes with my dad, I have 2 kids to take care of, I have a heart problem and to top it all off I feel so miserable every single day. I feel as though I'm a worthless person. I feel I'm enveloped in darkness. But you know what I think of myself, the people who love me, my kids and I realize I shouldn't be depressed at all. I'm not a very religious person but I know and I believe for every door that closes a window opens. We can't just wallow in sadness and self pity. It only brings us down and digs us deeper to our graves. We have to find that happy thought. That one thing that could let us out of our depression. I feel for you and I understand. I really do. Just remember this in your deepest darkest hour I'm here for you, praying for you. I may not know you but I know you are a person...I know you are worth everything that you are. And if you put your mind to a positive place you can do wonders. Believe in yourself...bring back your confidence...love yourself and the people around you. I believe in you.

Sometimes what is not right would lead you to something better. You just have to trust God in everything that is happening in your life now. He is a fair and just God. You just have to ave faith in him and do not lose hope. Difficulties come and go, what matters is how you deal with it. Everything will just be fine. Be happy. Things happen for a reason. God Bless. PS Life is beautiful my friend.

HUGS. I do not know what to say. Just take good care of yourself and do not do anything bad to yourself. Just hang on.