im lost dnt even know myself ..

Philippines
October 11, 2008 12:43pm CST
maybe your all wondering why my tittle goes like that.. honestly I'm crying right now, I'm tired.. i don't understand my self at this very moment.. All i want to do is cry.. don't know who to blame.. I'm stock in this place, place that full of worries full of doubt, full of jealousy.. how i wish i never grow up, maybe I'm happy with simple thing's right now ..I'm not blaming my partner, he is always at my side, but i can't show my feeling's to him because every time I'm crying his mad. He keep on telling me that I'm acting so weird. That's why i force my self not to cry in front of him anymore because he might not understand me. It's hard crying all alone. so hard.
2 responses
babyfuzz
@babyfuzz (1078)
• Philippines
11 Oct 08
I've been there, dear. You feel the world is cruel and turned its back on you. Sometimes, all we have is ourselves to hang on to. People will think that you're crazy for doing this, for saying something like this, for acting so weird. We can't blame other people or anything for the misfortunes that come our way. "Nothing can hurt us unless we let them". So it's you and only you who can make you happy, not your partner, not your mom, or any comedy show. We cry because we're frustrated, angry, anxious, and many other reasons. Guys are different. We can't expect them to understand us because they have a different way of sourcing out their negative feelings. You have to look inside you where's this coming from. It's a good outlet to write down your feelings. good thing you joined here in myLot. You can gain many friends and learn from other's experiences. Keep reading and keep posting! ^^v
babyfuzz
@babyfuzz (1078)
• Philippines
12 Oct 08
hey, what's up? hope you're doing ok now. Thanks for marking my message as the best response. Always look up and think positive. ^^v
michfroi
@michfroi (413)
• Philippines
12 Oct 08
i can feel you. from the very first time ive learned what is life im always crying alone...and its really hard because u feel that no one is there for you... i dont have enough strength to tell what i feel even with my parents... its hard to be alone but i dont want to be rejected so i prefer to be alone during hard times...