life is meaningless
United States
October 20, 2008 2:05pm CST
At this point in my life i can tell thta right now to me it's pointless. i dont feel that i mean anything to any one not even to the one i so call love. im 18 and so far since i graduated from highschool my life has been a reck. i cant seem to hold on to a job and i didnt graduate on time so now im not in collage. and my life is depressing i wake up every morniong to m y family who gets up and start their lives who are going to school and work and while i lay in the bed feeling like a loser. i wait for everyone to arrive home while im home waitning and watchin my life slowly but surely pass me by. i have no money no job i got fired from the last 2 jobs i got hired at. my boyfreind is always on the go and i sit at home until his is free and can kickit wit me. basically i feel like a big LOSER i was okay when i was in highschool is workin and in school but now my life has fell apart. i can somebody help me feel better!
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@bugz03 (40)
• Japan
21 Oct 08
Hi, there. We can't avoid that kind of situation and I think everybody has experienced it but maybe in different ways. When I took my board exam review some people, maybe the ones who are not happy with their lives, tends to intimidate or discourage me. And knowing that I am on the peak of my review. They sometimes compare me to my sibling that she's better than me because she always got a high grades in class. But I didn't mind them instead I made that as a challenge.
Look at them now, they stopped their foolish acts and lie lowed. Just prove to them that you can do better and don't lose hope. You can start now it is not too late. You can still make your life meaningful. Just make your situation now a challenge and you will see you will earn something in the future.
I hope I did answer you question. Good luck and happy mylotting!
@Pose123 (21635)
• Canada
20 Oct 08
Hi isanybodylistening, First of all I would like to welcome you to myLot and hope that you will make both friends and money here. This is a good site and maybe it can help take your mind away from some of your problems. As for your discussion I can assure you that your life is not meaningless, you are young and things will get better for you. You say that you got fired from your last two jobs, don't spend too much time thinking about that and try to find a job that you like doing. While you have some free time start posting some discussions here, and also respond to the discussions that others start and you will make a little money depending on your posts. If you know others who would be interested in this site,get them as referrals and that will help you as well. Try to make all of your discussions at least three lines, longer if you can. You will not make much money with one liners. I hope that you will find the right job for you very soon and start believing in yourself, you can do a lot more than you think you can. Blessings.
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@flance101 (137)
• Philippines
20 Oct 08
Hi there. I understand how you feel. I am the eldest child, and I was seen to be the brainiest and nicest. In fact I was so nice I followed my father's choice for me in college. At first I was doing fine, but seeing him disappointed with an average of 84-85 made me feel so bad. (My average back in high school was 95 and up.) And since then, I felt like my life fell apart. I have graduated, and I have two jobs at home. But they think poorly of me because my younger sister works in an office and is a CPA at the age of 21. Im an IT grad by the way. Ever since they made me feel like a sore loser, I couldnt get myself to go home and stay there for one whole week. I am renting a small apartment now and my bills and taking all of my salaries away, while my sister is staying in an apartment free of charge because of my father's job. She is able to give my parents little amount of money every now and then, while my money goes to my bills and my own food.
But hey, I am not giving up. You too should keep on fighting. You should believe in yourself more. That is what I keep on telling myself. You are still young. Treat these 'sore loser' feeling as your motivation. And when you find a job, be dedicated. Work hard so you wont feel like a loser again. And when you do, try to enjoy your job. How you like your job affects your attitude towards work. I know I can make it. I know you can make it. :) Are you going to let yourself drown by these? Dont! Dont let yourself down. You are your own hope. You are your own hero. Keep a positive attitude. :) One day, you will finally realize what you are worth. And this? This is not it!
Keep fighting girl.. :)
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@lynnemg (4529)
• United States
21 Oct 08
You are not going to feel any better about yourself or your life until you make the choice to get out there and change it. Nobody can make things better for you but you. It sounds like you are just going through slump right now. Make yourself some goals and start working towards them. You will bwe surprised how much better you feel when you just take one little step forwad. Even if that first step is just getting out and filling out some applications, you will feel that sense of accomplishment that you need to help you get going in the right direction. I highly doubt that you are a loser at all, just in a slump and needing to get yourself out of it.
Remember, one step at a time.
@sheenarobins (547)
• Philippines
21 Oct 08
Isanybodylistening!
Stop feeling sorry for yourself. Self pity tea party is not going to help you. I'm not saying, I havent been there. I just got out of there and lost a boyfriend because of the same sitch. Like, it wasn't enough. People and mostly the ones you care about will get contaminated because of how you think about yourself at the moment. Move it, girl. I know it may seem hard but I prayed and although I didn't understand my sitch, I just made the first step. I said, "LOrd, I don't know what to do. I don't even know which step but I'm gonna do it anyway". My fist step was pointless but you know it lead me to a realization and I did have fun half of the time. A change of environment might help like going somewhere else. There were tears because of confusion but I am better now. Whatever your going thru is temporary. It, too, shall pass. No matter what you do, I don't care just do something rather than waiting for people after their days work. It will make you feel even more useless than you think you are. And kickin it with your bf won't help either. stop for a moment, and focus on yourself and what needs to be done. You can't do it when you allow being distracted with so many things.
Get back to me if I was able to help you. and if you need more of this and you want it in details just respond. I'd be happy to help.
@PrincessThinker (234)
• Philippines
21 Oct 08
hi.
You yourself can make your life better because it is your own life. Though some may give you so many advices but if you just sit there and do nothing, then good and brilliant advices are turned to garbage.
Lucky for you you already experienced to have a boyfriend. Me, never and I am already 25 years old. I never experienced also having a job because my parents want me to be a full time student. I have graduated in college but was forced to take up Law which until now I can't still learn to love.
Which life is better you think. Mine or yours. Even in having a boyfriend my parents tend to dictate because they are conservative.
Do what you can. I know there is something great waiting for you out there. Just determine that when the oppotunity knocks, don't let it pass without scrutinizing it fully. Be positive always and maintain a healthy environment.
Remember that you only become a loser if you think you are. Strive hard because this world is not a sugar-coated ice cream or a bed of roses.
God Bless and keep on praying.
@tammytwo (4298)
• United States
21 Oct 08
You are the only person that can change the direction in which your life is headed. I have been in the same situation, feeling as though there was no reason for me on this on earth. It just took a little effort on my part. I found the right job for me and have begun to fulfill my dreams. You need to decide right now what it is that you want to do with your life, whether it be going to college, working from home or just volunteering in your community. Once you find a meaningful task you will begin to feel better about your self. Get up when your family does, get dressed and get out. Look for another job and get it out of your mind that you will be fired. You can do it!!!!!
@cassandralynn (1084)
• United States
21 Oct 08
You're just in a slump my dear, it will not always be like this for you. This time if for you to find out who you are. Don't be too harsh on yourself, you sound a bit depressed because things are not going the way you want at the moment. You're life is not meaningless, nobody's life is. I use to feel like you do now but MANY years later I now realized it was necessary for me to feel like that and go threw those emotions because now I appreciate life so much more now, these are what most people call "growing pains" and yeah , it does hurt.. You are 18, go have fun, be lazy for awhile, go dancing, enjoy life.. You have the rest of your life to be a adult,enjoy you're youth while you still have it. You're at a crossroads in your life. Things are always changing, nothing is the same.Make plan's now for your future. And about your job's you no longer work at,you were not meant to work at those place's, otherwise you would still be there. You'll find another job. Maybe you should start a online business? do research on it, you never know.
@idaantipolo (472)
• Philippines
21 Oct 08
Don't dwell too much on the negative side of your life right now, I think you should give yourself a break, start planning for your future and what you want to do. You're still young and you still have a lot of things ahead of you, whatever it is that you are experiencing now should be something that would inspire you and make you a better person.
@PRIYANK1992 (1677)
• India
21 Oct 08
Yeah I am satisfied with all of your words really Life is Meaningless...........
@syankee525 (6261)
• United States
21 Oct 08
well i am the kind of person who won't feel sorry for you. my question is what are ya going to do about it. you can do a few things. lay in bed all day and feel sorry for yourself. or get up and out there and make your life better.
if you really want your life has more meaning, then do something about it. i learn this along time ago. i ended up getting hurt, lost my job due my injury. i was hating life. no money almost lost my house at least 7 times, no food for the kids, even a few years new money for christmas gift for them.
now i have all these medical issues, i could sit around and complain about them, we ran out of money every month. so i went to work. i come home feeling bad and sore. but i get up and do what i got to do. hurting and sore.
get up and do something, stop feeling for yourself, get early and go job hunting.. self pitty is never good. and remember there is someone always got it way worst then you do..
@katpuchboy (392)
• Philippines
21 Oct 08
Hi, Isanybodylistening! First, I'd like to welcome you to myLot. I guess you are just looking at the negative side of life. Just think that when things are not going our way, it doesn't necessarily mean that life is meaningless. Don't feel so bad. Just think of the better things that you have at the moment. You are still young. There are still so much, and so many good things ahead of you. Just be positive!
Regards, and happy posting!
@lou_66 (909)
•
21 Oct 08
instead of waiting for the world to come to u, get out ther and find something that u enjoy.Try joining a sports club, taking up a hobbie or looking into doing some more studying. things arent gonna change unless u do something to change them.The longer u waith the harder it will be nd u will fall into a rut. Trust me av bin ther.
@annjilena (5618)
• United States
21 Oct 08
do you not know that God loves you so much he gave his only begotten son jesus christ so that we may live.when they get up you get up because you are not a loser at least you try not to try means you failed.get moving try to find another job do whatever it takes to make you feel better.remember god love you so much he wants the best for us.remember you are not ,not a loser you a winner so go get whats yours.
@despompa (472)
• Philippines
21 Oct 08
hi there!!
i am very surprised and disturbed as i go along your post. why are feeling that you're a loser? i just wanted to ask you this, are you really one? what i will say is not something just to make you feel better, but it is what i really thought of as i go along your post.
not having a job made you feel bored and even uncompetitive. but the feeling is only temporary dear. you're still too young to be depressed that way and i dont think you deserve it. for you to have something with your time while waiting for your boyfriend, why not do the laundry, clean the house and the likes that will not only keep you occupied but useful too. your house members will be pleased. try something that you never did before. it's just like working for somebody, but this time you are not monetarily compensated but the pride and self satisfaction is there and a strong grounds for you to keep going.
another thing is, don't be too focused on your boyfriend. he may not be the "guy" for you. just let it come and go. that way, you will not pity yourself and you won't be able to think that you are useless. hope this will help you feel better.
@jnk3dfx (721)
• India
21 Oct 08
Hey Welcome to mylot. I feel like its a punching post you have started as a beginer. When I joined MyLot i too have started my first post on life. But didnt recieved too many responses. Anyways you better check below link as its about life and the way i see life is as. So better check it and leave you comment. Have a nice day.
Http://treasurededreams.blogspot.com/2007/04/what-is-life_26.html
@kalianju (138)
• Nepal
21 Oct 08
hay! don't feel like this, you are now only 18, you feel like this......
impossible itself says that i am possible so be strong. only think positive and then see you feel better and you will be the winner, best of luck for your future.
@carmela0210 (1591)
• Philippines
21 Oct 08
ohhhh im really sorry about that!!i know how you feel right now i was like that before but what i do is just i find job for me to get along and go oin with my life, try to be optimistic and always think that you are more fortunate than anyone else like the one who are living because they are givin food, just like that!!!good luck and Godspeed,
welocme to mylot anyway, hope you enjoy it here as much as we do!!!and thank for sharing...
@undecoverbro (96)
• India
21 Oct 08
Allright Gurllll listen up il only say this once whats wrong with u and u better read this carefully what im saying now is really important " GURL its not ur life that is at fault it is you who is at fault life is what u make out of it and u just made ur life to be a train wreck it is your fault why u dident graduate on time and its your fault that u couldent keep up with a job and its your fault that u are at home and waiting for ur boyfriend and people why dont u stop balming ur life for it and take responsibility dont wait on life to give u what u want u need to go and take it, first of all u dont have a job right now i suppose then u should be looking out for a job first and not sitting at home, look if ur life isent what u want it to be then you are the one who can and should change it not ur boyfriend and not ur family and sure as well not ur life it is u who should take an initiative, first take care of urself and then u think about others who ever it may be i think u need to get ur goose in a row and then may be u can think of hanging with friends and who ever u want to first get a job and dont quit it and see what happens then u can do everything else haging out and so on but first get a job and then u do whatever want "
Life is what u make of it if u want ur life to be fantastic then u must make it fantastic if u want ur life to be like crap then it is left upto u to make it like crap, its left to u to decide what u want whether u want ur life to be like crap or fantastic and dont let others let u down and talk bad about u cause nothing is permenant in this world even the state ur in now will end soon and u will have a really awesome life, remember this life ur having now isent forever it will end pritty soon then u would just look back and laugh at what u were doing now every thing is temporary it will pass away so take it easy sit back relax get a job and move on and dont look back and dont get rejected cause the peple whor shining like stars will also have dark days and then u will be better than them, just dont get rejected.
Cheers!P.S. Stop telling everyone what ur life really is cause people are gosippers