What should I do?

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He is my besy friend to whom I used to tell everything.Even now he is studying abroad, we get in touch everyday by MSN.In different we both are dedicated to improving our Englidh ability, for him to transform to a better university, meanwhile for me, to apply for a university overseas. Sincerely speaking, he helped me a lot not only sharing some methods of English studying but cheering me up all the time. I really appreciate his help and cherish our friendship. However, yesterday, when I chatted with him online, I felt something subtle and unsatifactory. Last week, I to enhance my spoken English asked whether he could talk with me half an hour everyday from yesterday. He said of course. Then yesterday we got connect with each other, and he showed up early as usual. He told me about some of my shortcomings in speaking English, more significant some bad habbit I developed in studies. Telling the truth, in terms of the bad habbits, I am fully aware of them and working on to get rid of them. Despite the effort I launch now and then to kick them off, I was always hindered by myself unconsistence and obstacle from outside. I know that I are suppsed to overcome them as what I want to achieve is something far beyond ordinary; nonetheless, I always yeild to various temptation around me. I feel sorry about my self, but when he mentioned it I still had difficulty to accept the fact. He told me some methods I was entirly acquaintd with yet without persistent application. So it was a mixed feeling, bored, regretful,and impatient. Then you can imagine how strange our talk went. He improved his English as he is in England; more encouraging, he becomes more mature and ambitious, which I always pray for, but now feel a little uncomfortable as the disparity arises between us. With such feeling, I never have mood to continue our talk again and to show my own abmition and determination, I decide not to meet him online until my TOEFL test is finished. Frankly speaking, I first asking him to help me is for my TOEFL, but it seems now that I do want to demonstrate myself. But when I consider that he has been so lonely abroad and I who is his beat friend rather than give him some comfort, treat his good to me with unfairness, I am a little bit regetful and really worried about him. I miss him so much. What should I do?