HELP! Totally in love :) :( :) :( ...
By hellcord
@hellcord (673)
Romania
October 30, 2008 9:34am CST
I have this GORGEOUS brunette that just got out of training, at my work place.
And I'm totally LOST when I look at her, I feel self-aware, find myself rambling, insecure, etc etc. You know the drill :D
Now don't get me wrong, I'm not a wuss by nature, I do know my way around girls, even did a few nasty things with various other coworkers at this very place, and am pretty adventurous usually.
But this brunette.. Damn :D
Gues I found my match at least for now. Has this happened to you ? Ideas ? Thoughts ?
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@zigzagbuddha (4601)
• United States
30 Oct 08
Well, if she was a fiery red-headed hellcat like myself and you were feeling insecure and out of control, I would say you had not met your match you had met your doom. 
Only kidding. It is very very good to feel self-aware. In fact I believe it is the most important thing in the world. So anything or anyone that inspires that opening is good. It's when you grow to depend on that outside influence for your connection that you get into trouble.
There is nothing wrong with rambling. Ramble on. Actually, listening to somebody's ramblings can give you some pretty good clues as to who they really are and who think they are, hehehe.
My relationships up to now have always been contests for dominance. And once I have won the dominant role I am no longer interested. The only man I ever met who could dominate me I ran so fast and far from that it made my own head spin. He said he had been pursuing me for the last 10,000 years and now it was my turn. I said "That's what you think" and I was gone.
Was it my own insecurities that made me do that? Or was it an instinct for survival?? Who knows, and who really cares? But I think that if you are feeling insecure that you should ask yourself what are the thoughts you are thinking and the beliefs that you hold that are causing this feeling, and bring yourself to your own balance before you act. Just my opinion.
Only kidding. It is very very good to feel self-aware. In fact I believe it is the most important thing in the world. So anything or anyone that inspires that opening is good. It's when you grow to depend on that outside influence for your connection that you get into trouble.
There is nothing wrong with rambling. Ramble on. Actually, listening to somebody's ramblings can give you some pretty good clues as to who they really are and who think they are, hehehe.
My relationships up to now have always been contests for dominance. And once I have won the dominant role I am no longer interested. The only man I ever met who could dominate me I ran so fast and far from that it made my own head spin. He said he had been pursuing me for the last 10,000 years and now it was my turn. I said "That's what you think" and I was gone.
Was it my own insecurities that made me do that? Or was it an instinct for survival?? Who knows, and who really cares? But I think that if you are feeling insecure that you should ask yourself what are the thoughts you are thinking and the beliefs that you hold that are causing this feeling, and bring yourself to your own balance before you act. Just my opinion.
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@zigzagbuddha (4601)
• United States
31 Oct 08
I'm very pleased to see that we are on relatively the same page here, hahahaha! I am so used to people not knowing what the phuck I am talking about, and misconstruing everything I say that it had become a negative expectation. When I noticed that 'outpoint' in my vibration I got to work changing a few dominant thoughts on the subject and you are the result of that effort. I think it is pretty funny that what the universe would send as a match to my new thought vibration would be a handsome and arrogant 'opium addict' (hehehehe, I know, I know, Salvia is not addicting) who reminds me of gypsies, and a passionate life of adventure! Now I just have to work on the 'something I can never have' part! 
But seriously, you are such an inspiration to me!!! I have recently found myself in a place where in every direction I looked I could only see overwhelming obstacles and was feeling a similar panic to what you have described with your girl! You have really helped me to focus. I can't help but love you for that! 
When I first came here to this mountain I pictured myself in a sort of ‘montage’ like they do in movies like ‘Rocky’ and ‘Ruthless People’ for example. But it has gone on for far too long and will definitely have to hit the editing room before it hits the big screen, hehehe.
But that is still my first point of business. To ‘rebirth’ the dancer in me, the gypsy fiddler, the rakish thief, otherwise there’s just no point to life as far as I can see. Not that I don’t appreciate a few serene hours in the garden and the library, but still, it’s my Life in the balance, and to find my balance is everything, especially since my second point of business is to run away and join the circus as a tightrope walker, trapeze artist and amazing contortionist. Hehehe.
"...We all know that females like strength and independence, lack of attention from successful men, bad boys that follow no rules and are very bad for them, men taken by other women, and skillful body contact. Zigzag, can you confirm?:D..."
Hahahahaha! Yep. Confimed hellcord! And that is why I have avoided successful men, because I don't like to be ignored. 
What music are you going to being playing to set the scene for your 'conquest'? Inquiring minds want to know.
But seriously, you are such an inspiration to me!!! I have recently found myself in a place where in every direction I looked I could only see overwhelming obstacles and was feeling a similar panic to what you have described with your girl! You have really helped me to focus. I can't help but love you for that!
When I first came here to this mountain I pictured myself in a sort of ‘montage’ like they do in movies like ‘Rocky’ and ‘Ruthless People’ for example. But it has gone on for far too long and will definitely have to hit the editing room before it hits the big screen, hehehe.
But that is still my first point of business. To ‘rebirth’ the dancer in me, the gypsy fiddler, the rakish thief, otherwise there’s just no point to life as far as I can see. Not that I don’t appreciate a few serene hours in the garden and the library, but still, it’s my Life in the balance, and to find my balance is everything, especially since my second point of business is to run away and join the circus as a tightrope walker, trapeze artist and amazing contortionist. Hehehe.
"...We all know that females like strength and independence, lack of attention from successful men, bad boys that follow no rules and are very bad for them, men taken by other women, and skillful body contact. Zigzag, can you confirm?:D..."
Hahahahaha! Yep. Confimed hellcord! And that is why I have avoided successful men, because I don't like to be ignored.
What music are you going to being playing to set the scene for your 'conquest'? Inquiring minds want to know.1 person likes this
@hellcord (673)
• Romania
31 Oct 08
ah, yes, DOOM was the word I was looking for.
I know my way around the female mind, having studied a bit of both the theory and practice, and gone on all sorts of skirt adventures. That's why I was panicking in front of all teh insecurity, cause I know what buttons it pushes in a girl's mind.
BUT let us not despair and slash our wrists quite yet, for where there is noobness there can be learning, where there is learning there can be improvement, and where there is improvement, and some luck, and some voices in one's head, skirt can be chased down and conquered, and the day can still be won :D
Like Bruce Lee, I will have to take a few hits, taste a bit of my blood and break a few mirros of the labyrinth before the final boss goes down, but it CAN be done :)
Attraction is not a choice, so in some cases, even with perfect game, the chemistry will not form and Life will not spring forth from it.
But apart from that, chances of it working can be Greatly improved, with some Game knowledge. We all know that females like strength and independence, lack of attention from successful men, bad boys that follow no rules and are very bad for them, men taken by other women, and skillful body contact. Zigzag, can you confirm ? :D
As such I will proceed about my business of:
-flirting with all the other cute girls in here, some of which respond quite well
-proceed with my uber sports training campaign, backed by proteins, vitamins, melatonin and other good stuff
-stop spoiling her with my uber massages, share those with some other, more receptive girls
-continue with my daily meditation'/ relaxation campaign, backed by powerful electronics - relaxation is the key to happines and a good energy :)
-read massive amounts of material from the Inbox of Knowledge, in all matters related to Skirt hunting - for it has been ignored for too long, and I am out of practice :D
-clean the masses of pr0n from my computer, pimp up my music selection and prepare the room for the next weekend, when the next phase of my plan will kick in, and I'm likely to have her over for some herbal treatment, smoking, and entertainment.
-fly through the sky to my Salvia Gods and ask them for even more guidance, for the last trip on this topic was fruitful, but I need more wisdom :D
Aight, much work still to do, I must be on my way. Peace everyone :)
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@peedielyn (1207)
• United States
30 Oct 08
LOL this sounds like puppy love! There are times when I get that way. I usually think that they are just way to out of my league and I stumble, fumble, stutter and drop things. I am a klutzy person anyways, but it gets so much worse. Best of luck to you. Just take a breath and think positive!!
@peedielyn (1207)
• United States
31 Oct 08
LOL This is adorable! I haven't had feelins lke this in forever! Hope Things are alright!
@kerriannc (4279)
• Jamaica
31 Oct 08
So you are the workplace ho. Please to step lightly because if you have a reputation and this is real love for you then you are in a hot spot. My advise to you is to try and be friends. Sometimes friendship works well and then it can go to the next level after a couple of months don't rush it. Remember maybe someone from the past has a vendetta and you don't want to blow this. It can turn out to be Mrs Right.
