What would you do if...?

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My mom and my dad had me when they were very young. My mom was 18 and my dad was 19. Their relationship was pretty volatile when I was young, so when I was about seven my mom took my older brother and I and moved a state away from my father. My dad had problems; he was an alcoholic and a drug addict, my mom had problems; she had this terrible habit of letting guys move in who would physically, mentally, and sexually abuse my brother and I. My dad tried seeing us but it never worked out and my mom moved us around so much that half the time he didn't even know where we were - not that he could've made it if he did. So, the entire time I was growing up I saw my dad about once every six years. When I got pregnant for my son at 19, my dad sent me a letter. He told me that he had been clean for three years and he wanted to be in my life. I ripped it u and threw it away. I was SO angry, I blamed him for everything I had gone through growing up because I believed that if he had been there none of it would've happened. I believed that about him yet I still maintained a very close relationship with my mother. My son was born and time went by. I became involved with drugs myself, I got clean and another letter came. I read this one, I saved it and I still have it. I went to see my dad and it was WONDERFUL. After going through addiction myself I realized that he COULDN'T be there for me, he wanted to be, but he couldn't be. My dad and I are VERY close now and I love him with all of my heart, he is an amazing grandfather, and he has gotten another chance at being a good dad with my little sister. I just reached a point where I thought; if I can forgive my mom, how can I NOT forgive him. I want to know what you would do, what you did do or are doing in situations similar to mine? Do you have hope of being able to move past your childhood or are some things just UNFORGIVABLE?