loveable father

I love my father too but i am not so close to him because i am not a very showy person like other did and i never get close to my father that i am thinking that i waste my time when i am with my family because i realize that they are very important to me i it hurts mew a lot because they are my family but i could not come to them to share my feelings and blessings in life. I got married very early and i was away to my parents that i never expect to be more close to my parents in law that i can feel the love and share them the love that i never did to me parents. I dont want to think that i never find a way to be more close to my parents because i am not always with them to give the love that i never gave to them for many years.