depression has stolen my body

I can relate to alot of what you are feeling. I have Clinical Depression, as well as being severe OCD and Bipolar with incredibly sharp highs and lows - and this is while ON my meds. They don't cure, they maintain. I just wish I could handle a day without crying or panic attacks. Without people treating me like I am glass about to shatter.

Hi there! I think depression is experienced by everyone. It is a part of our emotions. I have not felt so much depression like that though there are times that I am feeling sad and never wanted to do anything but just sit and stare. There are times that though I feel hungry I don't want to eat cause I feel so lazy eating. During those times I feel I don't want to do anything. I understand what you are going through but the answer to your depression is within you. You have to start changing the way you look at life. Be positive and always try to make yourself feel alive. If there is no actual problem then you shouldn't be problematic and depressed like that. Life is ahead of you and you should try to keep running for it. I think the medications won't help you. Yes, medicines can help you calm down but only you and you alone can help yourself. Be strong and fight depression. It's just a matter of attitude. Hope that helps. Take care!

I'm sorry you are having to go thru this. I have had trouble with depression since a car accident 9 years ago. I didn't feel particularly sad, and didn't realize how depressed I was for quite a while. Now I am on Zoloft and doing MUCH better. But it takes several weeks -- they usually say 6-8 -- for the medication to kick in. I have read that sometimes antidepressants cause depression to worsen in women. However, I also understand that this kind of depression is PHYSICAL, and almost always related to chemical imbalance in the brain, so medication is usually NECESSARY. You have to keep at it -- if you are on this medicine for 2 months with little or no improvement, you MUST keep talking to the Dr about it -- you may need a different dosage, or you may need a different medication. In my case, I noticed improvement on the Zoloft, but not completely. So they increased the dosage. The improvement increased after the dosage increased. Was there something that happened in your life to cause this depression, or did it just seem to hit you from nowhere, when your life seemed fine up to that point? If there was some major issue(s) that happened, it might be helpful for you to start writing your thoughts and feelings into a journal. I suggest this because you write beautifully -- you really made me feel your pain! So it might be very healing if you write about your pain -- if you want to share your journal with your therapist, that may be helpful to the therapist in helping you better. If there was nothing in your life that you can think of that would cause/contribute to depression, then it would seem you have a natural, physical tendency towards it and that is the kind that medication can usually help very well. Keep up the medicine, so you will have time to know if it helps. Do you have a friend who could come or call and help pull you out when you "go so deep"? If not, can you get yourself to come on mylot and write and discuss when you feel yourself starting to slip deeper in that hole? Do you feel your therapist and your doctor are good matches for you and really helping? I know what you mean about not wanting to kill yourself. I've felt like I didn't want to kill myself, didn't want anyone or anything to hurt me either -- yet I was just so tired of being alive. Like I had no more energy left for living. But mostly depression caused me confusion, like I couldn't remember if I fed the dogs, or when I ate. It seemed the only thing I could do half way right was take care of my daughter. This was from head injury in the car accident. Keep up the good work! You will be fine in the end.

I went through depression when I was younger. It went away as I got older. I don't know why, or how. Just one day I wasn't depressed anymore. eh the medication... its not good. alot of people will tell you medication helps. I mean if a doctor told you then it must be the truth right? no. The medication only hides the feelings. They're still there. I think its life that got my over my depression. as your situations change, your outlook on life will change too. Maybe you should stop and really think about why you feel trapped. Why you don't think its worth getting out of bed. What is it that you want out of life? What is keeping you from getting what you want. How can you get it? I know it seems stupid of me to say this right now, with how you feel at the moment, but you will be ok. Just try it. One day when you don't feel like getting out of bed. Get a notepad out, and think these things over. Write them down on your notepad.

Dear Medney, I really do not know what the reason for your depression really is but whatever it may be, just remember one thing, It is only you and you alone who can control your heart and your mind so no matter how many people you seek for help, nothing is going to change unless you decide to change yourself and that my friend is the hardest thing in the world.To leave behind all thoughts and feelings and all what has happened and to start a new life is not something that is going to happen in a day or two but it is going to take a lot of time and a lot of struggle but I am fully convinced that you can do it because you've been through some kind of pain already and now it is only the question of managing the aftermath. Don't worry dear..You will always have a friend or someone around to help you...And you also have God on your side who won't watch His child suffer in silence.So take cre and have faith and things will surely be fine very soon...

IF you are still having these feelings after therapy and taking medications, I would strongly recommend seeing about being put on different meds. It's all trial and error to figure out which is the best pill for your situation. Getting my meds changed made me feel "normal" again.

Take your medication, go to as many doctors as you can, see psychologists as often as you can, do anything and everything you can to fight it. I did. I had depression for years, and I told myself that I was not going to be depressed anymore.

medney1988, Your need to change your mindset requires certain degree of inner strength to initiate and drive this campaign over a vast period of time. Your mind must have that level of clarity to decide what you want out of life and the kind of decision that would lead you to this goal. It isn't as simple as stating that you would need to change yourself and the way you view things and that will suffice. In certain agreement, yes, that's all you would need to overcome your hurdle, but beneath this sentence conceal massive challenges you will face before you could achieve wholesome freedom and liberty. In fact, if you really want to kill, I would say kill off the 'old personality' and bring forth the birth of a new you. Your depression is cyclical, (Earth is round, so is our natal chart) and if you have not build a robust Self by then, it will hit you the same force and send you spiraling towards the gruesome maw of depression once again. Self destructive behavior never gets you anywhere, apart from experiencing more depression and self pity. No problem in this world, despite it's magnitude, are without alternative solutions. Although life is indeed a struggle, but to destroy ourselves merely does not solve the problem in hand but adds more problems and burdens. And you will go through (probably more intensive) the lesson that you have failed to learn... and the struggles you have failed to overcome. Please don't be a silly girl. P.S: Skysuccess is not God; I cannot resolve problems on your behalf. Police, social worker and your shrink will probably advise similar things too. They too cannot resolve your problems on your behalf. Everything must come from your innate strength... to cultivate the will to surmount challenges. At the very least you are never alone unless that's what you want it to be. Take care.

Why do you want to die? Life is so beautiful. look at th positives of life and try to live life as though there was no tomorrow and yo had to do everythign today itself. I just love life and with a day was longer than it actually it. I find a 24 hour day too short. i with a day had at least 36 hours. There is such a lot i would like to do. The first thign I love to do is to rech out to th emaximum number of people. to identify with every one and to bring a smile on every face i meet. Smile for thign s coudl be much worse. Depression stems from isolation. Don't get isolated. Stay amongst people. Reach out and you will be surprised by the response.

im not going to give you any advice since im also feeling the same thing with you, maybe of different situations, but when im feeling depressed, i feel sooo down...the reasons that keeps me are my kids... though, just recently, my hubby and i are very much ok and we're trying to make our relationship work... so, this time, i hope i wouldn't feel this depression again...

I understand some medications take a few weeks to start working. It sounds like you are doing all the right things, getting professional help and medication. Sometimes it may take trying different medication to find something that will work for you. I believe in the psychotherapy and sometimes you need medication to fix a chemical imbalance in your brain. Some people need medication for life because the chemical imbalance returns without it. You have my sympathy and I hope some day you can leave that dark place you are in.

Depression is so terrible, I still remember my English teacher, Old Xue, he is an old man, also a happy old man, you never find out any unhappy expression from his face. Such a man, you will never believe that he once suffered from depression. He told us, he was so painful on the condition of depression. So here I can understand your feeling. Sorry to hear that. You can go on your medication, and then do not forget to close to the nature, breath fresh air, try to talk with your heart.

Depression is all in the mind. I would stay off the antidepressants because they are strange pills to put in the body. I've taken them before and they do nothing to enhance your mood. The best thing to do to keep away from depression is try to find beauty in everything or deprive your self of everyday things so when you finally do them they are so rewarding and blissful.