making my parents proud

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it seems that no matter what i do i can never make my parents proud of me. my dad is in prison and i have been in trouble trouble a few times but i'm trying to change and my family always horrasses me about my past. i've been through some really hard times but nothing compares to the pain i feel for not being able to live up to my families expectations. my mom shows no support for me when i bring up a business idea. i've told that i'm going to be an artist and she said whatever i've said i'm going to write a book and she laughed and said whatever. i just want to make my family proud of me and i want them to see that i want to do something good with my life instead follow in their foot steps and be a drug addict and never be there when my kids need me the most. when i was about 19 months old i had a serious seizure and i was pronounced clinically dead. my mom freaked out and rushed me to the hospital and they said there was nothing they could for me and my mom wouldn't accept that for an answer. they did some tests on me and found out that i still had brain activity and was able to bring me back. every time i want to play football my mom uses that as a reason to hold me back. i haven't had a seizure since then and i more than likely won't but we won't let go of that moment in my life. i'm very good at the sports that i play and i always work really hard to do good when i can and she does'nt pay attention to my efforts. i don't know what to do anymore she's told me that she doesn't want me in her home and every time i try to move out she says she's going to call the cops. it's frustrating to live like this and i hate it i am not going to let it ruin my life and she never leaves me alone about it no matter what i do i will always a rotten little teenager in her eyes.