Update on my tests

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I am giving you an update on the tests that I have taken for the mamogram, as one woman ask the other day what had come of them. I went Friday and had a test that had a long name but what it consisted of was them injecting a radioactive dye into me and then taking 3 8 minute pictures of my right breast. I was told that the test would take about 45 miutes and that it would not hurt and that it would be a bit uncomfortable, well that was all bull. MY paper that was sent from the doctors said one test on right breast. When I got there and was already going through the first of these pictures I was informed that this would be a 2 hour or more test as they was doing 4 8 minute test on each breast with a time between each. Didn't matter what I said, because the doctor had only ordered one test, they did them all. Now I know this was probably good as it showed the entire breast and what was or was not there. She told me that we was there to prove that I did not have breast cancer and not that I did. The lady was really nice and talked to me for the whole 8 minutes that each picture took. I guess that made the 8 minutes go faster. There was times when she said that she needed me to put my breast in a certain spot, well you know when you only have so much, they intend to get it there no matter what it takes to do it. Now you wait to hear what the results are. This has been the longest weekend I think I have lived, although my daughter has kept me occupied with shopping and things there is always that thought of what Monday will bring. I saw a quote that a woman put on here this morning and it said "If god brought you to it, God will get you through it" Let's hope that is true. There has never been any one in our family with breast cancer, and I suffer with heart diseas, emphysemia, high blood pressure, diabetes, isn't that enough, how much can you pile on a person's back before they crack. How many more pills can you push down a person's throat before it becomes enough. I have thought about this all weekend, and I have though that it would be much better for me to just stop taking all medicines and wait for the heart attack that they say will come and die that way than the horrible fight with breast cancer. What do you think, am I being afraid for nothing. Am I wrong in my thinking. How do you keep going when every day they drop something else on you to fight. The fight in me is gone, I actually don't believe that I am strong enough to get through this if the results are positive. Has anyone gone through this, can you help me. I am so scared of what is going to come of this.