life sucks

right now is sucky... i need money and to make money i need to get a job and i have social anxiety. So i'm totally freaking spaz lol well not really but i just don't talk and i don't know... its hard to find a job these days and i what i really want to do i can't do because i don't have the right stuff to do that job. i should after chritmas though i will still my anxiety too.so yeah lol but i want one now and i need one.

Saturday morning was a perfect example for me. I was lying in bed, my phone rang. It was the hospital telling me that my Uncle had just passed away. I had to wake my cousin up and tell him that his dad had passed away. So, that was really a sucky time in my life.