Infertility at 21???

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I find it hard to be around all my pregnant friends and family. I am nearly the only one of my friends and family who have not had a baby. Its hard when Im around them. Especially when i know they think of their miracle as ANOTHER mistake, and because they can share stories about their children and birth stories and such. I take it hard, when I found out about someone else being pregnant. I know I would be a great mother and my hubby a great father, but we have yet to be ble3ssed. Its easy to say, just calm down, it'll happen when its time. I know that. I know when my body is ready and my time has come it will happen. I just dont want it to be too far away. I dont want to wait forever to start a family. I dont try to feel jealous or envious of my pregnant loved ones. Its just that you know people can be so considerate when you have cancer, or experienced the death of a loved one or divorce. These things are very common. But infertility isnt, and therefore, people lack compassion and understanding. Although they may be well intentioned, I sometimes feel depressed or resentful when recieving yet another baby shower invite. I always want to go because I enjoy babies, and anything to do with babies, but I always still feel down once Im there. I know Im not alone in this journey of mine. And I know that one day I will experience the blessing of being pregnant and becoming a mommy. I just feel as though I was born to be a mom. Like off Juno, she said how you just know you were born for that one special thing. Im like her, i was born to be a mom. I cant wait to experience the joys and even the sorrows that come along with being a parent. And the journey through parenthood. I just cant help this feeling.