I had not noticed, that my heart never healed...

It is such a long story, and the heart is very heavy. I did see her for a brief moment six years ago, but I was so buried with what was happening around me, I could not voice my feelings. I know I've hurt her... I thought I had moved on, and I went along with my life... but now, actually feeling what I have forgotten, I remember that I truly love her. I don't think it's possible for me to ever stop loving her - I never want to stop loving her. I wonder where she is, what she's doing... I wonder how she feels about me now, has she forgotten me... I tried never dwell on these thoughts, but as each day passed that I will never get back, I being only to think of what this day would have been if she and I were togeather...

Well I guess there's nothing more to do but move on, since you don't really have any more communication with her. But hey, if you guys are really meant to be...then destiny will find its way. Just don't close your doors for others.

Hi markroderick, YOur situation is so sad... Falling in love with the bestfriend. He may be the one but caanot be the one... I am just glad that you two remained friends no matter what. It's tough, isn't it? Suppressed emotions... feelings you cannot burst... but you know will always haunt you. Just one question though. At night, who is the last person on your mind? YOur boyfriend or your bestfriend? When you wake up, who's the first person you think about?

I don't know anything about 'One Great Loves' or fates or destinies, I know my heart... and only now after many years of ignoring it... Wallow in love? No, no. I rejoice in these feelings, although they cause me pain... far too long have I been inhuman...