Why Is My Mother So Evil?!?!

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Since I was young - about 5th grade - my mother always favored my younger brother. The difference between him and I was that he never left my mom's house but I, confused, went to live with my dad. I didn't go far as he only lived the next town over...but since then she has never treated me like a mother should treat her daughter. I normally could care less as I am going to be 29 next month but this year has been the worst in my life. I have two wonderful kids and that's about it. I lost my marriage - my house - my truck...and had to move in with my mother. Just until I get some things financially worked out. I have only been here about a month and have cried myself to sleep every night. She makes me feel so unwelcomed. She screams every chance she gets...she even kicked me and my kids out the other night because I and my brother got into an arguement and she picked his side. I came back but only because I truly have no where else to go. Basically, it's here or a homeless shelter and she knows it. It's like she knows she's "got me" and there is nothing I can do about it. Before I can move I have to get through Christmas - then pay off the utility bills that were left unpaid when my husband left and then come up with first months rent and a security deposit. I almost committed myself one day right before I moved in with her and she knew about that. She still continues to emotionally beat me down. My brother though was feeling depressed last summer because he was medically discharged from the army and he was only in basic training. Since he wanted to be there so bad he got depressed and rightfully so....but she tip toed around him and treated him so nice because she knew what he was going through. But what about me? What about what I have been through? I spent years knowing that her and I weren't "close" but now I am truly for the first time sad as I realize I do not have a mother - not in the sense like other people have a mother. I don't care how old you are - it hurts to know that a parent could honestly give a crap less about what happens to you. Has anyone else dealt with something like this and how did you get through it?