I miss my Dad
By lagirl1966
@lagirl1966 (709)
United States
December 24, 2008 1:17pm CST
Hi Everyone.
I am feeling rather sad today because I am missing my Dad. I usually do during Christmas. He passed away in 2005 from complications of diabetes. I would give anything to hear his voice again. Even if it is telling me off! He only did that though when I made a mistake in life. Which, I have made several. I just wonder what he is doing up in heaven today and tomorrow. Who he is with, if he is with my grandparents (his mom and dad). Does anyone ever wonder about that? He did give me a sign that he was happy after he died. I was laying down with my baby kitten in one arm and my other arm was hanging over the side of the bed. I felt his hand touch mine. I knew it was my dads hand. It was big and warm, just like it was when I was little. I don't really like to be around my family at this time. Some of them speak badly of him. Mostly my mom and younger brother. They are glad he is gone. They say he put them through hell when he was sick. I guess I don't really know cause I didn't live in the same house. I feel like I am the only one that loves and misses him so much right now. I just hope he is happy.
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@venkatesh007 (7)
• India
25 Dec 08
hi , every body should think about there or the others life , and dont be sad or worry about the past ,because u need to even remember ur dad because ull feel the presence of him and , take the life as a challenge , and once again merry cristimas , im venkatesh , bye bye
ok
@workaholic08 (148)
• India
25 Dec 08
Ya, I understand how you feel. I also lost my father, but not a day has passed without remembering him or his words.
@lagirl1966 (709)
• United States
26 Dec 08
workaholic,
I am sorry you lost him. I to, don't go a day without thinking of my dad. Just today, my mom gave me a very old drivers license of my dads and a copy of his birth certificate. I am putting them in my scrap book.
@chenxiaoyue_713 (2165)
• China
25 Dec 08
I'm sorry to hear that. I can feel how miserable you are when you dad passed away three years ago. You must have gone through many hard times. But what you can do now is to bless him well in heaven. I don't know why your mom and younger brother would speak badly of your dad. Maybe it's true that his illness once caused great trouble, but it's not his fault. He didn't mean it.
@lagirl1966 (709)
• United States
25 Dec 08
Hi chenxiaoyue,
Thank you. I guess it takes a long time to get pass the grieving stage. I wish my mom and brother would just forgive him and just love him. But living with him near the end, he became mean they said. Well I would have to if I was going through that pain that he was. It is hard to watch your own father, who I always thought was the strongest, toughest man in the world, deteriorate before your eyes. It broke my heart. But when I got the news that he went, I was relieved that he was finally out of pain. Now he is happy in heaven with perfect eyesight and no more pain. So that makes me happy. I am sure he knows that I think of him everyday.
@journey314207 (171)
• United States
25 Dec 08
Hey, lagirl. Im sorry to hear that about your father, i know you really missing him specially this Christmas. I felt sorry about what your mother and younger brother felt to your father I guess they have something felt bad to him when he was alive before but they suppose to forgive and forget. I am sure your Dad have a lots of the best things he done to them. He will happy already at Gods Home, just always prayed his soul.
Sometimes we made a lots regrets, when our Dad and Mom was pass away. We never showed them before how we felt great and loved them ,when they are still in our side and felt how greatful we have to have a parents like them and they can felt also your loved and cared you given them.
My Both parents is still strong with GOD grace. I try my very owned best how really important them in my life that i still needed they`re guidance and words. I am not almost saying I love you to my parents since we aren't practice before to say in our home but i always try to say them how I loved them. I miss my Parents too so badly.
@lagirl1966 (709)
• United States
26 Dec 08
journey,
To me, our parents deserve the best we can give them. They did everything for us. They raised us to be such good people and they deserve the same. I had the best dad in the world, and I am sure you feel the same twords your parents. I don't know how much longer my mom will be here, but I try to spend as much time with her as I can. Life is to short. You never know when something will happen. That is what I have learned. What helps me is, I talk to my dad. I know he can hear me. So I just tell him what I am feeling. This conversation will continue when I join him I am sure.
@lotdj11 (73)
• Canada
25 Dec 08
It's really sweet that you miss your father. I'm kind of sad for your mother..how she can think like that? My dad has diabetes too. And he never act like a serious father role since he turned into 45 I guess. Sometimes he does something really hurts our feeling and family. However, my mom still accepts him after that. I'm very proud of that!!! Yeah! We'd rather believe they live happily in heaven. That's a great thought! And I think your father is happy even though he passed away because you are still thinking about him. He would feel happy about that! At least there's one person miss him on this earth! Good luck and happy Christmas! Hope you feel better soon!
@lagirl1966 (709)
• United States
25 Dec 08
lotdj11,
Thanks for your words! Not only my mom feels this way, but my younger brother hates him. It is because, when dad was near the end he became very mean and nasty. Well, I would to if I was in all that pain! He had holes in his feet, his vision was just about gone, and he had to live with dialysis tubes in his body. He was racked with pain constantly. I went over there once and saw him collapse on the floor. I used to take him to his weekly dialysis treatments 3 times a week and witnessed him faint all the time. It was hard to watch him deteriorate. But I didn't live with them so I didn't know how bad it got in the house. He was very depressed living this way. So I guess it made my mom and brother bitter. But not me! I will always miss him. I imagine he is heaven right now joking with his parents! Have a good holiday!
@coolingstar9 (79)
• Singapore
25 Dec 08
I share the same feeling as you. Human being is not perfect, no matter what, we should love our dad and mom because they were the one that made us of what we are now.
When my mom passed away few years ago, I suddenly realized that I did too little for her. Thinking back, I feel sad as well. I know your feeling, let's extend our love to others as well.
Merry Christmas and happy new year to you and all at home.
@lagirl1966 (709)
• United States
26 Dec 08
Yes I know what you mean. I feel bad to. My parents gave me so much money during my lifetime to help me financially. Now I can't pay them back. I want to pay my mom back so badly, but I cant. It makes me feel like a loser cause it mostly involved working and I tried to better my life by college and then working, but my depression made me get fired from alot of jobs. I know I have let them down and I feel so guilty about it. But I can't do anything about it just show her I love her and do what I can for her. And others to. I agree with you.
@mariposaman (2959)
• Canada
25 Dec 08
It is nice to hear the comforting comment here. I am glad you are able to have fond remembrances instead of just sorrow. You are not alone, I have heard a lot of people express sorrow at Christmas time about loved ones who have passed away and are no longer with us.
@quhyum (62)
• India
26 Dec 08
hi this is sameer i miss my dad every time he when ever i go infrot of him he give the advice any types of thing plz dnt do that type of thing ang behave like good gays and do well studies i relay love my dad because he leason my felling when i m sad that time my dada will say me wht hap may heart do ypu want any things i suddenly give the slile and i say yes dada i love do u come with my friend home he told me yes why not i introduse my friends he incrage her and sayinf=g to him dnt do bad things the friends are sayong to me that is your friend not like dad i say yes he is my heart i realy love him so much i lve you dad and i miss u soo much @};- @};- @};- this is not for you this is for my lovely dad
