I like to see my mother's face first at the morning

I guess you love your mom so much that's why you feel that. She makes you feel that sense of security and love from her so you always wants to see her face. That's good because I've read a lot of blogs hating their mothers. And you are lucky to have a good mother. I have not experienced having one since my mother left me to my father when I was still five and I have always longed for a motherly love. What I do now is that I just shower my kids with all the love that I was not able to get. Anyway, I still feel lucky having a great father, relatives and husband that makes up for any incompleteness in my life. However, taking this opportunity, I would like my mom to know, wherever she may be, that I am hoping that she got or achieved that thing whatever it may be that became the reason why she was able to leave me just like that and did not have the strength or effort to look for me until now. I am still not closing my heart to her.