have you ever been really depressed?

Yes, sometimes life can seem to be so uncertain when I'm down emotionally. I makes me feel like there are so many things I need to make right but nothing would really work out. I'd grieve when such thoughts come to mind, I'd scold myself in my heart, I'd cry if it hurts me, I'd find a friend and tell him/her how horrible things had been. Finally, I'd tell myself, alright, enough of sadness, no matter how it turns out, I've got to try my best. Not everything works out, but so long as I keep on reminding myself to try my best, something will work and I don't feel so bad. I'd be depressed when I lose a good friend, and when there's nothing I can do to help my loved ones when they are suffering. Never too long though, I keep in mind being depressed is never the end. Even I don't see the reason for life at the moment, I must act well. Perhaps I'd understand why I had to face such depressing matters afterwards. ^^

I had my first depression in 1998, but at that time I didn't know that it was a depression. I lost my interest in everything around me and I remember looking at other people thinking "how can they do the things they do, how can they be interested in anything, when everything is completely meaningless?" Some time passed and I had short periods with depression, but nothing really serious. Then in 2005 I had a very severe depression. I didn't want to live any longer, I just wanted to get away from everything. I was put on antidepressants and I spent some time at a psychiatreic clinic. Eventually I started to get better, but I have to take antidepressants for the rest of my life, otherwise I'll get ill again. I don't really like the idea of tasking medicine forever, but when I tried to quit I started feeling very, very depressed and I don't want to go through it again.

I suffered from reactive depression from 1978 to 1980. During that time I did not feel there was no reason to life. I accepted that as part of my destiny. I did not seek professional help because I thought it was unnecessary. All of my friends did not realise the mental struggles I was facing. All they knew there was some change in my behaviour but none of them asked me anything. I turned to God. Accepted the consequences of following the path I had chosen. Now I can say I have recovered fully, though there are still traces of the scars which broke myself. The experience taught me a lot about people and life. all the best, rosdimy

I have been really depressed many times, I think most of us get that way. I usually try to look for the light at the end of the tunnel, and try to stay up beat. I always look at the good things I have going for me, and try to focus on that, and it usually gets me through. If not, I wouldn't be here typing right now.

I've been there, and it is a hard place to come back from. It took my son drawing a picture of me crying with a smile on my face to help me begin the journey back from depression. I still have problems with being depressed now and then, but I have not let myself get as down as I was at that point in my life.