Depression
@HeavenUnaware (1757)
United States
January 3, 2009 2:16pm CST
How many of my fellow MyLotter's have ever dealt with being very depressed? Are you still depressed or have you found a way around it?
I've had a very tough life, or so it seems. I know people have it harder than I do but that doesn't change the fact that my life is hard to me. This past year was one of the hardest and I found myself being very depressed through almost the whole year. I hate feeling like this. I used to be sad about things but if I knew there was a way through the issues, I would often focus on that and be able to move on. Lately though, my struggles have been financial and there hasn't been any indication of things getting better or of a "way out" of this situation so I feel like I fall deeper into my depression.
There have been moments where I have wished that I was never born or when I wish this life was just over already because it's been such a difficult one for me - but then I feel really bad for even thinking that when other people are struggling so much worse than I am.
How do you get yourself through a period of being depressed?
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15 responses
@kitttenskysong (676)
• United States
3 Jan 09
Depression? Yeah that pretty much sums me up these days. Of course it has been a bad year, actually My life pretty much sucks. The only reason I don't end it all is I have this aversion to pain, I don't like it and Killing myself would hurt. I think.
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@GardenGerty (161080)
• United States
3 Jan 09
Being able to sympathize, and to help each other and other people does help you feel better. Service industries seem to be the one area where there is always a demand. I hope you find another job soon.
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@HeavenUnaware (1757)
• United States
3 Jan 09
You sound like me. I'm glad you haven't done anything to act upon your depression. It's weird, I can feel for others and give them advice on not doing anything crazy but then I can't give myself that same advice. I guess it's different when it's someone else. I hope you have a better year ((hugs))
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@kitttenskysong (676)
• United States
3 Jan 09
i hope we both have better years. I was doing great for me until I lost my job. I think its easier to tell others to cheer up than it is to tell ourselves, not sure why
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@AndrewFreyne (6281)
• United Kingdom
4 Jan 09
Depression is a really sad state to be in! I have been depressed although I'm not sure whether I am still depressed! I have stopped taking my antidepressents as they were making me feel really tired! I guess I am able to smile now somewhat so I guess I am not seriously depressed. There are a lot of things that I enjoy now and being on My Lot is one of them. I also love cycling on a regular basis, they do say that exercise helps with depression; I think this is true as I feel so good when I am out on the bike, I am truly free! I am in debt and this really gets me down but I am managing things as best as I can. Have you tried listening to positive thinking tapes? I particularly love listening to Antony Robbins! He's an American life coach and he hosts these positive seminars. Anyway, I try to listen to a tape when I am feeling low and I really find that this helps me to pick myself up. I hope that things work out for you and that you can improve your mood. Good luck. Andrew
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@poppoppop111 (5731)
• Canada
3 Jan 09
i've had a lot of problems with depression in the past. i had a tough time growing up. i moved around a lot to friends, family houses and even a foster home. what brought me out of it was my daughter. as soon as i had her it changed my life and i've had no problems since. i'm not saying this is a solution cause i know it's not but i'm not sure why it helped. i know that i didn't have her just to have someone to love it just worked out where that's what made me happy
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@HeavenUnaware (1757)
• United States
3 Jan 09
I completely understand. My son is the reason I haven't done anything drastic. He keeps me going but he is getting older and will be moving on with his life away from me and I worry of how I will deal when he's gone and I'm here depressed. I hope things get better so I won't have to worry about any of that.
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@dianne17k (587)
• Philippines
3 Jan 09
I've been in and out of depression almost my entire life. It's been hard for me as well seeing myself more blessed than most people and yet still feeling the pain. Like you, there are instances that I wished I hadn't existed or I wished that I could just disappear. It's tough to battle with depression but we must for sake of others that depend on us. Just think forward and focus on the goals. Try to remind yourself that these are merely hardships that hone us into better individuals. Exercise has helped me boost endorphins. Go out for a walk to help you clear your mind off things. If you like kids, spend an afternoon with them and see how lightly they see the things around them. I hope that helps. Cheer up!
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@HeavenUnaware (1757)
• United States
3 Jan 09
Thank you Dianne. I've been in and out of depression my entire life as well. It seems like it's been one blow after another in my life and I get so sad when I wonder "why me" all the time. I hate feeling like this but thank you for your words of support.
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@jakes9 (215)
• India
4 Jan 09
Almost everyone faces depression at some or the other time of our lives.
So did I.
I started remaining depressed from past few years, because I always thought that my sister was given more love than me. And i was right too, no doubt. Still the same conditions are there, but now I am better off, because I got used to this behaviour of people around me.
I don't know why do i feel like this that my parents are biased towards her, even when she misbehaves. She is so stubborn and misbehaved child, but still gets the most love and attention.
She never gets scolded for her mistakes. She even beats me many times, and i get scolded because she starts shouting like hell, and says that i beated her. She is 10 years YOUNGER to me, and still i am helpless!
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@henahuda (158)
• Australia
4 Jan 09
its true that depression is like slow poison that completely destroys you and does not let you think positively. it happened even to me when i just completed my studies and was desperately looking for a job because i had to fulfill all my dreams but at the end of the day nothing worked out well for me and i started losing my confidence and faith . then i shared everything with my parents who told me that one cannot get anything more than they are destined to and not even before the right time comes . one more thing that whatever happens happens for a good reason. So dont worry and look forward for the new sunrise.
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@GardenGerty (161080)
• United States
3 Jan 09
I was in that kind of funk when I found MyLot, and I found it to be very therapeutic. It did not solve my money issues, but it seemed to give me hope. It also made me feel good when I could help other people. I do not know your details, but check into Consumer Credit Counseling, look it up just that way online. They are a non profit, and receive some government grants for some aspects of their counseling. They will not rip you off. There are some credit help companies that will rip you off completely.
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@HeavenUnaware (1757)
• United States
3 Jan 09
Thank you Gerty - we are not in credit/debt type of trouble. We just do not bring in enough money to pay our normal bills, rent or to be able to put food on the table. We both work and our bills are not out of the ordinary or luxurious.. just normal everyday bills. We have rent, one small car payment, electric, gas, water, trash, car insurance, cable, phone. The only thing we could cut out is the cable but I need it to make some sort of side money online (eBay etc.) and also to keep track of my husband's work logs/paychecks. We have 2 low balance credit cards that we are no longer using because we can't afford to pay them off. Basically, we both need to be able to make more money because it is so expensive to live a normal life anymore. We can't get a cheaper place to live because 1. we are in a lease and 2. if we went any lower, we'd have to move to a very high violence area of the city. My son graduates from high school this coming June so we do not want to move him out of this area until then.
It's just a sad mess and I feel like I'm sinking into a hole of doom. I need to find another job but honestly, no one is higher at the moment except jobs that are paying the same as the job I have. I may have to look into a second job just to overlap on the hours.
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@ulalume (713)
• United States
4 Jan 09
Have you or your husband considered working a second, part-time job? I dont know what you do for a living, could this be reasonable? I know it would probably take a lot out of you both, but it may be necessary. Or how about having your son work a job? At least part time, to assist? And make it up to him when you make more money in the future?
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@ajithlal (14716)
• India
4 Jan 09
I do have been depressed when I find that things does not go in the way I wanted. What I do is that I would try to keep myself busy or do things I like. I think keeping oneself with friends or people who really cares also helps to decrease the depression. Keeping oneself busy is the best way to deal with the depression. A person who does not do anything might get depressed easily. An idle mind is the devil's workshop. Best way is to get into activities.
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@Sissygrl (10912)
• Canada
4 Jan 09
I have battled depression most of my life. . without going too far into detail, i had reasons to be depressed when i was a preteeny, and that stuck with me for a long time, and i tried to drink it away.. that for sure doesn't help.. then i tried to just push it away.. that didn't help either.. then I just removed myself from the life i had, i moved away with my then boyfriend, now husband, and things just started to seem to get better. . and then worse.. and then better.. it really is a rollar coaster.. and the pills didn't help me at all.. i dont even like to talk about it because i'm scared i will jinx myself into feeling that great deep dark dread of life.. i'm sorry that you are feeling depressed heaven.. i wish i could help you. and everyone else.. cause i know how dam helpless it makes you feel. and how much taht makes you frusterated even more..
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@phyrethyme (1267)
• Philippines
4 Jan 09
Depression is usually clinical.. Are you referring to clinical depression?
Anyway, like you I sometimes wish I never existed. I just be by myself when I have to get through this periodic phase. I don't like talking to other people about it because it's difficult to explain and instead of listening, people keep suggesting advices and activities. They don't really understand, in my opinion.
When I feel very down, I just blog or write. I put it all into writing.
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@machel2008 (616)
• China
4 Jan 09
yes,i stronly agree with you,i am also being very deprssed in the past year,really difficult for me to spend last year with many problem in my life.especially in financial side,that's social problem. i hope the disagreeable life will be pass soon.i hope this year my condition will be change better.happy mylotting and happy good future for every mylotter.....
@carmelsuarez (329)
• Philippines
4 Jan 09
There are times that when I get depressed I'm really really down. But I rarely get it...but very very depressed. I remember just recently that I was depressed and was sick and I didn't realized that it was a sign of depression already and all I did was sleep even if i just get in the morning. All I wanna do was rest and complain about something.
Wow... the feeling was horrible and I need someone to talk to to get my mind out of that something that bothers me. We went to the province and I remember not coming back to the city and face the horrible feeling again. How I have wished that the time we have in the province would not end.
And when I can't do it any longer... I start praying for help from the Lord. I prayed for forgiveness and peace. And lo and behold indeed the Lord lifted that thing in me and give peace.
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@j47lee (740)
• Canada
4 Jan 09
2.5 years ago... i was going through a time when i was depressed.... just felt that nothing was going right.. and the only thing i used to do was work work and work...i used to pick fights for nothing.... but then.. it was just temporarily... thank god.... i used to cry all the time....
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@singlemommy (2955)
• United States
4 Jan 09
I can totally relate to you. I think everyone has hardships in their lives and they make all of us feel this way at times. I don't know if I have found anything that really helps but I do like to write when I'm feeling down. I think I write my best when I'm depressed. I also like to get here on MyLot when I'm getting down, but I also like being on MyLot when I'm in a great mood too. I guess I just love this site! 
I think you just need to find something that makes you happy and when you start feeling down then do it. I know that I've been a good help, but I hope it might give you some ideas. Good luck and I hope everything works out for you sweetie!
I think you just need to find something that makes you happy and when you start feeling down then do it. I know that I've been a good help, but I hope it might give you some ideas. Good luck and I hope everything works out for you sweetie!1 person likes this
