I'm Losing My Gracie

Cats, you have done nothing to deserve all this bad luck. It seems like when it rains it pours and it is not only pouring over you, it is a big storm that does not want to move on. It will, I will never tell you that God doesn't give you more than you can handle, because I have been there, where the burden is just so much that you feel you have nowhere to turn. Reach out for help, don't be too proud. There are people that are willing to be there for you. I really think you could use someone to talk to, a minister, a close friend, a person that has nothing to do with any of this. You cannot let yourself get down any further. It is easy just to shut the door, or run away. We definitely cannot understand why everything happens at once and is just dumped in our lap. Look for help, it is out there. We are here for you also.

Thank you Thoroughrob. I don't know what to say or think. All I know is this is hard and life has been so hard on hubby and I and we don't know why. I've tried to right things between my nephew and I but he won't have it. What else is there for if I knew I'd try to right it too but I can't if I don't know. I have such a headache from crying.

I don't have anybody in person right now because of my past, I wasn't popular in school because of some problems I had in which were spread all over my school which is one of the reasons I dropped out. Besides, the friends that I do have are 4 hours away, in my home town where I don't want to be. When I married my hubby 17 years ago, he was in the army and we lived so far from "home" and even though we've made a few friends along the way, being in the military life, friends came and left so often that we've become reclusive because we're used to it. AND the more my hearing got worse and worse, I withdrew because it's hard to get someone to understand that just because I speak good doesn't mean I hear good and it's embarrassing to have to ask them to repeat over and over because then they get aggravated and/or speak even softer so I gave up a long time ago. It's not that I don't want any friends, it's just that I'm so misunderstood as being snobbish which is so NOT the case at all, it's because I didn't hear the person say something. Or I'll say something meaning it in a good way and I've had this happen more often than not, that they take it the wrong way and write me off. I've corrected some situations AFTER I realized what I said didn't come out right and thank goodness I was given the chance to explain. I'm just tired of having to explain myself to others and not getting the understanding that is needed. Now if my problem were something that could be seen, maybe things would be different but unfortunetly, that's not the case. Besides, we just moved here 2 1/2 years ago, we barely know some of the neighbors names and our next door neighbor to the left of us are done with us as we are of them. It's a weird situation to be in but I'm making it but only because of friends I have on here! I'm serious, I can read everything and aren't left out at all. And because you all are so caring and sensitive as well as CAT LOVERS, makes it all the more worth while because you guys DO understand. :)

I sent this as an email to you just know..but posting here in case you don't get to your emails right away What is the specific health problem Gracie has...it's a long, long shot, but I have a Natural Remedies book by Anitra Frasier....it might have some tips to get Gracie on the mend naturally...like I said a long shot...tell me what her problem is...I'll look it up in the book, scan the pages and send as a PDF file

Thank you pye.... I've cried all day long and now I have such a headache. I'm praying too that God will heal her so she can live a longer life with me. I love her so much pye that it hurts! I love all my fur babies! Every one of them mean so much to me but for some reason Gracie has been attached at the hip with me for so long that she's my shadow. To not have her there is going to kill me. Please God heal my Gracie!

Today was her second opinion and she said the same thing the first one said, there's nothing they can do. She could have a few days to weeks to months but I know it'll be about a week because it was last weekend when she was in there last. The only difference will be, we had stopped giving her the medicine because she scared the hell out of us after giving it to her but this time I decided to try again on Friday night because she was laboring again and it didn't do anything like it did the first time so I continued to give her the medicine and maybe by continuing it through the week maybe, just maybe she'll have been bought some more time. I can only hope. She's my baby girl. My 5th female Siamese. First I had Cindy and she got up in my dad's truck and he didn't know it..... Joy, Si and Star were hit by a car. I guess I'm not suppose to have a female Siamese. I so love the breed because they're so strong in their personalities and are very opinionated which I love so much because they're such a joy to be around. When they're loving, it's by their own choice, not ours but when they are, they really are loving creatures. I talk to Gracie all the time and she answers me with her "meow" and I'll say something else and she meows back like a real conversation. I'm going to miss her so much when her time does come. But I know I did all I could for her. She's suffered enough with her lungs being drained twice because it's a very painful procedure so that's not going to happen again but I will put her down if she's suffering. I hope it doesn't come to that for I'd so rather God take her in His time but I will do it if I have to.

Awwww whiteheather.... thank you for being so kind and sweet and caring!! We appreciate that so very much! My head hurts from all the crying I've done today. Trying to stay strong so I could go to my appointment with the dentist and still cried. Went to my parent's to give dad his truck back and cried with mom. I hope and pray that God will spare her and heal her so she can live a longer life. 4 1/2 is just too young but if God decides to take her, I hope he does it quickly because she doesn't deserve to suffer. I won't let her suffer but I hope He makes that decision and not make me make it.

She did look like she was getting better until Thursday night. Then she went back down hill again so I started her back up on the medicine which did help some but I had to take her back today to see about a second opinion and she said the same thing the first one said, it's a matter of time before her heart gives out. I've cried all day long, even at my appointment with the dentist and then at my mom's. I don't understand why am I having such bad luck?

Thank you dreamweaverjan.... I wish so much that I had better news to tell. I hate being the deliverer of bad news but my year has been truely from hell ever since April. I hope and pray God does spare my Gracie and heals her so she can live a long happy life with me. Thank you for your thoughts and prayers for they mean so much to me!

I do understand what you mean but I don't want to send her over just yet, especially since she's so full of love and life. It's obvious that she wants to live so no, I can't do that to her. She is doing much better now since she's being given her medicine twice a day every day. So far her breathing has been normal and she's doing really good! Hopefully it'll continue and thanks to many who've responded to my latest discussion on her, I have some hope that she'll live a few more years as long as she gets her medication which as long as I'm alive, she'll get it. Hugs to you too MsTickle!

Thank you abbey.... it is tough. I'm really hoping that God hears all of our prayers and heals Gracie's heart and lets her live a while longer with me because I love her so darned much! She's my baby girl....

I'm so lost right now. I have seen the lowest of my life so many times within a year that I'm starting to really wonder why am I here? To be tortured and tormented? I'm trying so hard to be a good person so why is all this bad happening to me? I'm so not looking for sympathy but I am asking for a lighter load or the bad to stop happening.... I can do without any good too for a while or how ever long so long as the bad stops happening. Thanks for lighting a candle on her behalf.....

I know its hard. I know they say that God doesn't give us more than we can handle, and you wish God didn't trust us so much. Well, my faith says that any suffering we deal with in this world will be taken from us in the next, if we bear it in a Godly manner.

I'm trying to bear it all ElicBxn but damn I'm so worn out both mentally and physically. Hubby and I have had way more than we ever expected to happen to us in one year's time and we're just wiped out and we're both at the point of not wanting to go on any more because it's too hard. Now if things were spread out a bit over the years then it might not be so overwelming but it's all happened since April and since then, it's been all down hill. I mean, what the hell is going on? What have we done to deserve this deep of a hell? You, know? This isn't just hell anymore, it's the pitts of hell. If I could right what ever I did wrong I would and have tried to with my nephew who isn't speaking to me but he won't have it so what else is there?

Thank you.... I'm sorry for being so slow in repsonding but gee, I've had my hands so full since April and it seems to be no end in sight because once something gets taken care of, something else takes it's place. It's no wonder I'm tired all the time! Yes it is hard to make that decision and we've had to do it a number of times ourselves, even to a little tiny kitten which I had tried to save it's life and got second opinions and such but I couldn't. It killed me when I had to put it down when it was so playful and full of life but it's bowels weren't developed properly and it would get so backed up. It would get into the little litter box and just coo and coo like an owl because it couldn't go to the bathroom then it would have diareah later. It was awful to watch. But in light of things, with Gracie, she's doing much better now since she's being given her medicine twice a day every day. So far her breathing has been normal and she's doing really good! Hopefully it'll continue and thanks to many who've responded to my latest discussion on her, I have some hope that she'll live a few more years as long as she gets her medication which as long as I'm alive, she'll get it.

Gracie is doing much better now since she's being given her medicine twice a day every day. So far her breathing has been normal and she's doing really good! Hopefully it'll continue and thanks to many who've responded to my latest discussion on her, I have some hope that she'll live a few more years as long as she gets her medication which as long as I'm alive, she'll get it.

Thank you! She's doing rather good now since she's on her medicine twice a day now. Read my response above yours and you'll get the update on her. Thanks again for being so caring!!

That's great! I'm glad she's doing better :)