I'm torn...but its too late to turn back now

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As many of you already know, I am a homeschooling mom of four. Since the beginning, I have always planned to take it year by year, assessing the needs of my children, keeping up with the national content standards, and allowing them the freedom to chose their own paths. Well...one of my children has chosen a path, without me teaching. It makes me happy to know that she knows herself well enough to make a big decision like like this. We have been talking about all the ins and outs for several months. She has a load of friends, both homeschooled and public schooled, and remains herself no matter who she is with. She has a solid foundation on her own character, and is comfortable being herself. This is just amazing to me, and makes me feel like a successful homeschool mom. On the other hand. She is so confident in herself, that she thinks a public education will be better for her than what I can provide. I believe this too, but it is still hard to digest. She will do fine, but that is part of what I'm scared of...if that makes any sense. She thrives on competition, is a social butterfly, loves the lime light, and needs to be around people. I can give her all she needs in the way of curriculum, but I can't give her the schedules, deadlines, strict grading, peer compitition, and social network that she desires. Back to the other hand. This child has a sensory issue. She's super sensitive to sensory input. When her senses are over stimulated she shuts down or exploads(mentally). If the teachers and staff are not sensitive to this, she may end up having discipline problems that should never be in a discipline category...or she could end be labeled with all sorts of learning disability crap. I know who she is, how she works, and what to do in this situations. But strangers have no clue about her. I'm beating myself up over putting my child in the care of complete stranger for 7 hours a day. Trusting them with her health, welfare, and education...without knowing them at all. But then I start beating from the other side, saying I'm being selfis, and only worrying about my fears. Instead I should be greatful that she is strong enough and confident enough in herself to voice her opinion, share her ideas and dreams, and critically talk out the options. I mean, we made bar graphs pertaining to her friends and their ages/grades/maturity, we've talked about social issues, schedules she'll need to get used, expectations she'll need to get used to, discpline procedures she may experience. All of it. We've also talked about committment. I explained that this isn't just a whim decision. She knows she can't quit once she starts. She has to give it a full semester. And she's fine with that...for now. Oh, my...what a long rant. Thank you for reading it. Please share your thoughts, ideas, concerns, advice, on this issue!!!! Hae you ever made a decision based on the lesser of two evils or the better of two goods? After you made your decision, did you have second thoughts? How did it turn out for you in the end?