losing a child

I am so sorry for your loss. I miscarried my first pregnancy and I know that even though being with my daughters for the time I did was a blessing. I did not get to meet the first child i was ever pregnant with. So to be honest what you are going through is much more painful I was given the chance to say goodbye to Caedence and Clara. I am so sorry if you feel the need to talk with someone please friend me and I will be glad to just listen if you want. Sometimes just letting feelings be heard help. Thank you for your advice.

i don't know whether it is more painful to have the child, then losing it or like me, never have a chance to see my child. I think both are equally painful, but i think i'm strong enough to overcome the loss. You, as well, are strong enough to overcome it. Just slowly, one step at a time to walk out of the pain. I'm okie now, i still carry the pain and the loss in me. No longer depress or sad but i don't like babies. They remind me of my loss. I don't aviod baby showder or anything to do with babies. But I generally do not play with other people's kids. Maybe in a way, I'm still trap in my loss. One of my best friend is pregnant around the same time. Her kid remind me of my loss. I have an ultrasound of the my baby. i told my husband to keep it carefully but don't let me see it. In my heart, i know the ultrasound is there, i know i have a baby before. If i choose to keep the ultrasound, i think i will keep looking at it non-stop. None of my friend know that i'm pregnant before. I prefer keeping it that way. My family know that i have a miscarriage. Everything went on as normal. I think the next time i'm pregnant, i will freak out. =)

I found out I was pregnant again only two months after losing my first pregnancy. Believe me it was scary. I was still quite depressed about the loss and didn't believe I would carry full term. My thought was God wouldn't let me keep the first one why would he let me keep this one. My son is now eleven and a giant pain that I love dearly I also have a healthy 18 month old. The twins were born just way to early and they just didn't have the chance that they should have but i don't give up some day i will try for one more. Knowing that it can go bad makes it a more difficult decision but knowing that it can go perfect makes the risk worth it. If i had given up on having children after miscarriage I wouldn't have my two now. I hope that some day you will decide to try again. You sound like you would be a wonderful Mother. You already are a mother to one that is not with you now but you would make a great mom to one that is.