have you ever thought of dying?
By tryxiness
@tryxiness (4544)
Philippines
January 20, 2009 9:15am CST
I am not really suicidal.
I hate the idea of death, but I guess, there will come a time when we encounter it.
When my younger brother died, it's like half of me died with him. It was really a major depression.
I do not want to detail how hard it was losing a loved one. All I knew was, I went with the flow. My system functioned pretty well but I was not aware that I was functioning.
For the past few days, I have been thinking on this -- I would rather die ahead of my loved ones rather than them leaving me, this would definitely make a zombie out of me.
For my mylot friends, I am so sorry for being so "off" and morbid lately. There's just this part of me that is so sad.
Going back to my topic -- have you ever thought of dying?I told my aunt that if ever I have cancer, I would take the alternative medicine (I don't want the chemotherapy...). And I always tell my nanny (yaya) that when I die my family might be richer without me -- my loved ones get all of my benefits. All of them are named in one or two of those benefits.
I am turning to be one lunatic. 
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11 responses
@chrischelle (44)
• Philippines
21 Jan 09
LOL I think about dying in romantic way,.. for my love one, I'll die,..
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@tryxiness (4544)
• Philippines
22 Jan 09
hahaha! i bet you are an avid romeo and juliet fan or perhaps a twilight fan. 
@chrischelle (44)
• Philippines
24 Jan 09
hahaha no I'm not a fan of any of them, but I'd love to die in the romantic way,.. that's really true,.. hihi^^,
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@rberon1985 (5359)
• Philippines
20 Jan 09
We all know that we will all came to that point. whatever we do, we cannot avoid it since all of us has its owm n destiny. As of these moment I am not yet ready. I still have to raise my family from poverty. i know they still need me. But as what i have said a while ago, we cannot control our life. we do not know when it will end. But as far as we are still alive, make all the things that other people will benifit from it. I advise you not to be deppress. it will not bring good thing to you. You will just be stress. Just laugh at yiur problems. I know its not right to laugh at it, but the most important is that it can lessen the tension that youa re experiencing.
@tryxiness (4544)
• Philippines
20 Jan 09
Thank you for the advise. I really appreciate it.
It's just weird, I am bit gloomy lately. I know I am a happy person in general. This "sadness" will pass.
@rberon1985 (5359)
• Philippines
21 Jan 09
Don't worry everything will be alright. do not let problem affects you. just keep on praying.
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@nengs10 (3180)
• Philippines
21 Jan 09
That's sad somehow. I think of dying sometimes but when I think of my loved ones especially my wife, I rather keep my life moving and hoping for the best. I just think of it when I'm so down and that when I feel like I'm having the world's most difficult problem.
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@nanzhifeng (6)
• China
21 Jan 09
everything will pass!!just have a willing heart!!,you can conqer any peaks of the world!!!
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@tryxiness (4544)
• Philippines
22 Jan 09
I know. I guess, it really is a matter of choice. As long as the heart wills everything will fall smoothly on its right path.
@djemba (767)
• India
21 Jan 09
Hi tryxiness,I'm really sorry for your brother..I know how it feels when your loved one get hurt..Well I'm not a very optimistic guy so whenever something bad happens ,i feel why i have to live..but i don't think of ending my life by myself..i just hope someone kills me..
@rsa101 (38115)
• Philippines
21 Jan 09
Yes I guess we all have thought of that idea in our lives. It is the one thing that no one can avoid. It is just that sometimes there are those that go ahead of us and we have to stay for awhile but eventually we will meet our ends too. I guess it is our choice how we may want to end our lives. My mom has cancer but she chose the chemo as her choice to fight the disease. Right now, she has survive the battle but I know someday she might not be able to cope with it.
@bhag570 (109)
• India
20 Jan 09
Dear Friends,
The beautiful thing about life is being a "Human being". NO animal, tree or other living being has this opportunities as humans have.
So I never think of taking my life. I want to enjoy all the things in this beautiful world and this Great opportunity to live in this world.
So friends, Live and let Live.. There is more in this world to enjoy- including MYLOTing. be happy...
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@clamburger (35)
• United States
21 Jan 09
yes i think everyone has. It scares me though and i try to stray from it. I hope when i do go, its peaceful dealth.
@suite018 (25)
• Philippines
21 Jan 09
I always thought of killing my self, when i feel down,. but i cant find a nice outcome in performing it. Thinking how will I look after hanging my self on a ceiling, and how absurd do I look, after jumping on a building and break my body into pieces LOL.,
smoke to shorten my life, but then i realize myself having a lung desease and pictured myself dying, ohw,.
well, why not stay wealthy and look not to the problem but to the solutions and outcomes. The possibilities that loosing someone means having something in return.
Only He has the will.
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@anklesmash (1412)
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21 Jan 09
i know i will die sometime but thats life however i am going to make sure i live as long as possible and if i ever develop a terminal illness i will try any treatment possible to try and have as long as possible.
