Your last good cry

my last good cry was today around 3 in the morning. i was listening to a song. this particular song was the last song my fiancee played for me before she departed to Hong Kong. she's gone now, up there behind the clouds. laughing out loud. for the pasts 40 days, since she left me, almost every day i cry for her, i am missing her so much. i am still in a devastating and the worst day of my life, i am still having a hard time accepting the fact. there are still plenty of tears that lurks deep inside my existence, and i know there will be time were i can let it all out. and if ever that happens, that will be my cue to finally let go of her and move on with my life.

The last time i cried was yesterday. I cried because i had to make up hours at work and couldn't leave to go see my sister having her baby. I was real emotional. I had to make up hours though. Responsibility is everything.