Will I ever be ok with his autism?

It was frustrating to have no one believe me... I just kept on going until I found someone who did believe that there was something! I don't know how strong I am but I've been told that before..Perhaps we are all stronger than we think or realize that we are! As for the Mainstream Kindergarten...He is only there (Fully Supported) because there is no other choice given by the board of ed for JK/SK I am afraid that I may have to place him in a smaller Special class for grade one though I don't want to...I love for him to be in the regular grade one but we are realizing that it may be too much for him class size wise It breaks my heart to think I may have to do this..I at least have to go around to all the different schools in the city and look at their special classes and decide what would be best for James...At least they will bus him if I pick a school out of outr school district but I do wish for him to be in the regular one...Such a hard decision for me and I have not been looking forward to it at all! My boy does have a home program of which I mentioned above...He has had a Private ABA Provider now for two and half years. We are still waiting for funding from the government as the list is long here in Ontario...Two and a half years and he is now only number seven!!! Anyhow, He started out at four hours per week and then we upped him to six hours a week and then we got some generous donations and upped him to nine hours a week and now we are back to six hours a week. We also have My Husband's Mom who comes and gives us respite and works on my son's fine motor skills, printing, and reading etc. I'd love to talk to you more at length sometime...do you have Yahoo Messenger? PM me your E-Mail...We all need some type of social network...It's not easy to parent our kids at the best of times! Love and Hugs ~Heavens~

Heavens you are such a loving and caring mother. I really hope things work out for your son and his school situation. My co worker was talking about enrolling her son (typical) in kindergarten. Oh if it was only that easy for us.;) I would like to email and talk in more dept. Excuse me I am not sure what pm means. I will just fiddle around with this site and hopefully figure it out. Best of luck and God Bless.

That must have been frustrating to know your child had something wrong and the professional did not see it. You must be a very strong and loving mother because of it. Its wonderful your son is in a mainstream class, my son is still in the autism program. I am not sure if he will ever be mainstream. Does your son have any home programs? Our son has ABA therapy about 15-18 hours a week, six of which I turtor him. I always appreciate your kind thoughts and prayers. Take care of your self and your wonderful little boy.

Thank you sacmom I appreciate your response. That is wonderful your son is affectionate. And for the most part children like ours really just want to please and they tend to be very sweet. We are lucky our son is that way to, of course he has his moments but who doesn't.

Thank you SwtJenlove your words mean so much. You are right autism is on the rise and we just need people to understand it more and to get more involved. He does need my love and attention which of course he gets he just needs in at a whole different level then a typical child would.

Thanks your kind words help!

Thank you zhuhuifen for your kind words. And you are absolutely right, I know my son needs me to be there for him. He is such a sweet boy, he gives me a hug when I get down to eye level whether I am just going to talk to him or if I have to disipline him. Any how your words mean so much and I appreciate your response. Take care

His Mom is Proud to have you for his Nana!!! ~Heavens~

Your Grandson is very lucky to have a loving and supportive Nana like you. It is wonderful you see all the good that little boy does. Our son's Nana who is also very loving and I know she loves him, but unfortunetly I don't believe she is proud of him. Well maybe that is too extreme, perhaps she just doesn't understand it as well as you. The sad thing is I don't think she wants to. It is sad becasue when he was younger before we knew he had autism, they had such as strong connection they were very close. So close on some occasions he would cry when she would drop him off at home. Now, well it is just defferent. You should be proud of your little guy as his mom should be proud to have a nana like you for her child. Take care and God Bless.

Well I guess everyone looks at things differently. I feel that Autism is a part of my son & that is who he is... I could never say I hate his Autism because that is a part of him. I think you should try going to the Autism Support Groups in your area & get some support to help your views & help you live with his Autism.

Thanks Foxxee But I have to be honest I love my son very much, but I absolutely hate his autism.

Thank you for your response. You know I don't know how someone should act or say when they encounter a hanicapped child or special needs. And that is just it treat us like we are normal or as normal as it gets. If he is throwing a tantrum I accept people are going to stare because guess what I would too!! Just please don't judge and don't be obvious. You are right most people mean well and I am not mad at them but I am about my son having autism. God Bless.

Thank you squirt051305 it is wonderful you have such a close relationship with your cousin. My son is pretty severe with his autism. He can talk and he knows a ton of words and although he is getter better because we are working with him in his home program, he does not communicate unless prompted. He is absolutely beautiful with big brown eyes and the longest lashes you ever saw. Both my boys get that from my husband. Also he does have tantrums and can be agressive toward himself and usually his tutors. Good luck with your little cousin I hope my son makes improvenments like him.