After All These Years

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I've been in love with my fiance for years! We've known each other for 16 1/2 years (since I was a sophomore in high school!) We dated off and on for a while throughout high school...you know high school kids...we date, we break up, we date, we break up. LOL So we've always been very good friends. When we were 22, he decided to go active duty in the Army (he had been in the National Guard since we were 17). He was sent to Germany. I think that I never told him how much I wanted to be with him because I had 2 children from a previous relationship (one was a newborn at the time that he left for Germany). I didn't think that he'd want to be with me and a "ready-made" family. So I let him go. He left, wound up getting married...which broke my heart (not that he knew). So, last spring, after many years of not seeing each other (but had always stayed in touch) he and I started talking about the past and he and I both confessed to always loving each other. So, in July 2008 I moved out to Missouri. I don't know how many times he has told me that it should have been me he married. And all the times he's told me that he knows why none of his other relationships worked out....because he couldn't give them his heart because he had given it to me a long time ago. And I feel exactly the same way. I now have FOUR children and he has one. But we're this one, big happy family (all 9 of us (2 dogs included...lol)). I hope that every single person here is able to find this kind of love. We don't argue or fight over stupid crap. We just....are. Even when I get irritated...he has a great time making me feel better or happy...just by being silly or making a funny face or simply coming up and giving me a hug. As much work as relationships are....they should all also be this easy. :-) If we never griped about the small stuff and worked hard on the big stuff.....The effort is more than worth it. :-)