To abort or not to abort?

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When I was a medical transcription student, We've tacled the topic of abortion then our mintor presented a video of live abortion. We've seen that the fetus tried to fight for his life and he scream when the pin hits him. It was not a good scene for all of us, most of the students cried and specially those who commits same sin as the mother of the fetus did. It's a very heart melting situation, treating there own child like some kind of animals that can easily be killed. I didn't understand why they do that. Until, one day I found myself at the situation of the girl in that vedio. I feel so scared and guilty, I know my parents will not want me to get in that situation. Lots of questions have come into my mind, like; "How can I go to school if I'm like this?", "Where will I go if my parents throw me away?", "Who can help me?" At that time I can't think of any answeres, I just pray to God and ask for guidance and also for strength. I think a thousand times if I have to abort my baby or not. Then, I decided that no matter what I will not have an abortion, even if my parents will get furious. I just think that "everything will be okay". Until the day has come for me to tell my parents about my situation that's why I told Mama to come with me because I want to consult an Oby-gyne. I wasn't sure if I was pregnant and then the result is positive. I felt the mixed emotions of excitement, happiness and guilt because I saw Mama cried. She didn't expect me that I'll give them a big problem because she knows that I'm a good girl. I feel sorry, I want to hug her but I'm a very private person most of the times I didn't want to show my real feelings I just manage to have a bitter smile at that time while the doctor keeps on admonishing me. I pretend not to hear every word she said because she knows nothing and she's accusing me that I've commit adultery which is not true. I just let her talk and talk and imagined that she's a mad dragon while the smokes coming out through her nose. When we got home my parents didn't admonished me that much they tell me that part of their minds are proud because I choose to face the consequences of my mistake even if I know that my future will be ruined. I'm very much thankful to God because He gives me a supportive and loving parents. As of now, me and my family are happy because we have a very cheerful and intelegent baby in our home. I'm working hard for her future and trying to learn more about life so I can use them to teach my daughter and to help her mold her personality into a finer person than I was. I hope this experience that I've shared will inspire all the girls that are losing their hope and courage to face this kind of situation. What's your story? Have you incountered this situation? Are you in favor of abortion? Why?