God will only give us what we can handle!
@mamalovestoread (692)
Canada
February 20, 2009 5:36pm CST
I just need to vent. I am 27 years old I have been threw heartache well everyone has. I have loved and lost. I have been threw abuse! Stood by my boyfriend at the time. Whle he went to jail numerous times! Only to find out he was cheating on me!
I have been where I have had no money or food in my home! Living on only flour adn water made into dough and baked it.
I have been threw school only to have the school close before I recieved my diploma.
My best friend in the whole world has moved away! To another province!
I have lost a child 5 years ago. I have had another child that is perfect in every way except delayed in speach! I have a son that was born with no valve in his heart. He has had many blue spells where he would turn blue and pass out. I have seen him go threw hundreds of medical tests. I have sat in a waiting room for 8 hours while he whent threw open heart surgery. I have sat by his bed every day 24/7 watching him praying that he would pull threw. And thank God he did! I went threw this all on my own with the help of my mother and daughter and the strength that God has given me.
I was married for 5 years only to find out that my husband was cheating on me and selling drugs out of my home while I was out working my butt off to pay for education and our house and bills. I never seen any of the money! I also found out only 2 weeks ago that he has a 5 year old kid! So while i was preg on my first son we was out sleeping around! What an idiot!'
Today my divorse was finalized! You think I would be happy but im sitting here thinking why was I put threw so much!
I hear that God only gives us what we can handle but he sure is trying to see how far I can be pushed!
Thanx for lettin me vent!
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10 responses
@thedailydisco (180)
• Norway
21 Feb 09
Wow, you've been through some hard times. I'm sorry to hear about all this.
I get the impression you have done all you can do.
But if there is a god or not is your decision to conclude.
No-one knows, that's why we call it believe.
If there is a god why should he/she/it give you a test.
I mean as god is displayed through the books, he only do good things.
I don't mean to be cruel, if i am im sorry. But religion is a easy way to answer a lot of question. I believe in something bigger then human. Something like a natursl force, something bigger then us all together. But a defined religion only makes things difficult and limited. What is good and what is bad?
You've been through some hard times. Loosing such precious values is not easy for anyone. No one deserves it. But to be quite honest it seem like you have been naive too. I mean why did you trust these guys? love can make us all blind.
I have been through several relationships that i should`nt have been in.
But as long as we learn the past is the past and the future is more knowledge.
@thedailydisco (180)
• Norway
22 Feb 09
I'm sorry. I never meant to hurt you or rip off feelings from you.
You posted it to MyLot and i thought that was for a discussion not a one way street.
It seem like things have become very good for you. You turned something negative into something positive. You deserve that:_)
But neither if i believe or not it is my decision & im glad the chruch worked well for you. It does`nt matter to me as long as you feel it's working for you.
As i said i don't want to step on your toes, i only said my meaning.
@sanuanu (11235)
• India
20 Feb 09
Man. I am really sorry to hear this story of yours. Your life has many downs till now. I hope that it ends here and you will get only good news.
I don't know if God only gives us what we can handle. I mean I am in a trouble and I thought that I would never fall into this trouble in my life because I can't handle it at all. I am trying for last three years but I can't get out of it. I can't handle it but God still have put me in!
@mamalovestoread (692)
• Canada
21 Feb 09
Hi thank you for your responce. I realize that you are in alot of trouble. I pray that you come out of it and are a stronger person because you went threw it! Remember that you may think that you cant handle it but you are. You are still living you life day by day. Just remember you will get out of it! Keep the faith.
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@Nhey16 (2518)
• Philippines
21 Feb 09
hello mamalovestoread,
you are a very strong woman to have went through all those things. you may have been into sufferings but you were able to manage and you still are standing on your two feet. I may not have known you personally but you really did inspire me, coz a lot of times I'm so depressed, and just reading this it made me realize that I should not give up on a lot of things.
@mariposaman (2959)
• Canada
21 Feb 09
Wow, sounds like you really like the bad boys. I think the health problems with your children is really unfortunate. I am not sure god purposely singles certain people, it is just by chance. I hope you are striving to get emotionally healthy so you can attract emotionally healthy people. Unfortunately I cannot help you so I will just will you all the best in the future, sounds like you deserve it.
@mamalovestoread (692)
• Canada
21 Feb 09
Well I dont really like bad boys they just seem to find me lol! I didnt know my husband was bad until a few weeks before I left him. I didnt know he was cheating on me until 2 weeks ago! I know that God doesnt just single out certain people. But I think he really got it out for me! Just kidding! Thanx for the comment!
@sunil_008 (1269)
• India
21 Feb 09
do i need to console you?are you or your situation going to be okay with that...i am glad you told us all about your suffocations.am sure things will be okay with you in near future. i guess you fall to him too quickly.well, am not at all blaming you.but, why you never tried to know about that man?...
i can not blame him for his misdeeds.but you are getting it. i am sure all your children are doing fine.so try finding happiness in them...be positive in life as the situation for anyone do not remain the same throughout the life...
there is always light at the end of the tunnel...
try to be happy
@mamalovestoread (692)
• Canada
21 Feb 09
Thank you so much I think ill be ok! I did get to know him it was just that he lied alot and hid things from me his friends even hid it all for him also.
My children are doing great they are always happy well most of the time! They have everything that they could ever want! They have more toys then I have clothes and thats saying somehting! I am happy most of the time it was just all gettin to me thats Y i vented! Im good now!
@doooookie (99)
• Philippines
21 Feb 09
oh your story is really great its amazing how God save us from the problems and trials he want us to overcome this trials for us to know how powerful He is and big He is in our life that He will not leave us nor forsake us. God bless!
@mamalovestoread (692)
• Canada
21 Feb 09
Hi thank you for your responce. It is so true that he is powerfull and will help us threw anything. I know that he is there and always will be!
@stacyv81 (5903)
• United States
21 Feb 09
Wow! I am so sorry!
I feel for you about your child having open heart surgery my daughter was born with the two arteries switched and had to have 2 surgeries the first and second day of her life! And I know that is the hardest thing to see.
I too believe God only gives us what we can handle, although sometimes we sit back and tell God, I cant take anymore, please...
I will pray for you and I hope that things start getting better for you!
@mamalovestoread (692)
• Canada
21 Feb 09
Thank you for your responce. I am hoping and praying that your daughter is now healthy and growing strong. I thank God every day that I have now two beautifal children that are growing strong! I remember when Jayden was in surgery I was praying "please God I cant loose another child I cant burry him!" 10 minutes later the doctor came out and told me that my son was doing great and the surgery was a success! Ill pray for you and your daughter also.
@gelay07 (588)
• Philippines
21 Feb 09
sometimes we question God for giving us problems we thought could actually kill us. I am a living testimony of how God made me went through a lot in my life. first of all, i just learned from my mom i was only given few years to live like i would only live until 11 yrs old but i am still here i am already in my 30's. I never thought i could pull through every time i was sent to the hospital for my illness. I used to be regular at hospitals, I am still thankful and grateful coz despite of what i went through God made me realize i had to be good and make the most of the countless chances He has given. I was able to find my purpose after all what ive had been through that I am here for my mom's or had to accompany mom in her life since i am the only one with her who is left in the house since my siblings are already married.I still question God from time to time especially when i am hit again by some sort of undesirable events or situation.
@mamalovestoread (692)
• Canada
21 Feb 09
Wow thank you for your responce. I know that it is hard to constantly be going back and forth to a hospital. I think all the staff at the childs hospital here know us by name! I am thankfull that since december 2007 He has not had to go to the emergency room. I praise God for that every day! I know that anyone can pull threw anything if they just have faith! God has been a big part of our life ever since I was a child! I also question God sometimes and dont always get my answer but I always remember that when I get my prayers answered to Praise God that he answered my prayers. Not always the way I want it to go but still answered!
@NuttyMomma (901)
• United States
21 Feb 09
You need to look at the positives in your life and know things could be much worse. You are very strong! You are in control of your future and you need to believe that you deserve good in your life and you will get it.
@mamalovestoread (692)
• Canada
21 Feb 09
Hi thanx for your responce. I really only talked about the bad because I was just venting. I know that there is alot of good in my life. I now have two beautifaly healthy kids that are my world. I have a roof over my head, food in my cupboards, May not have money in the bank but I do have family!
Thank you for telling me that im strong it is nice to hear it especially from a person I dont know.
