grandma forgot who i am

@oyenkai (4394)
Philippines
February 23, 2009 6:08pm CST
Last weekend, I went home to the province to be with my parents and siblings. I also made it a point to visit my grandma - she has alzheimers and she's aware of that. When she saw me, everything seemed normal. She even asked me to get her some stuff because we were hearing mass together. Then right after mass, she asked me where I lived - our house right next to hers. Then asked me who my dad was... I tried to jog her memory but there's really nothing there anymore. It was one of the saddest moments of my life. And I couldn't even cry because I didn't want to hurt her feelings... I didn't want to make her feel that forgetting made other people feel terrible....
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@sandymay48 (2030)
• Canada
24 Feb 09
Hi oyenkai....I feel your pain. Alzheimers is a terrible desease that robs its victims of their dignity and their families of a loved one. I used to work with many people who have it and have seen the sadness it causes. In the beginning its very hard also for the person who has it. They realize they do and realize they are forgetting things. It must be very frustrating. I think in your situation, it would have been OK to cry. Your grandma likely wouldnt have asssociated your crying with her forgetting if she is that far along in the stages. Also you may have been able to easily cover it up with something else. My heart goes out to you my dear. My mom had it too in before she passed away last summer. When we went to visit her for her 80th birthday, she had no idea we were coming. She just loves my husband so we got him to take her down her tea as a surprise. She said the normal thankyou but didnt even realize who brought it to her. She carried on a conversation but had no idea who to. The next day, my grandchildren who were only 3 and 8 arrived to see her. They had driven all the way with my daughter, about 1200 miles. She was sitting outside and we sent the grandson in first. SHe said oh theres a little boy running around in here. No recollection at all. I hope some day they find a cure for a horrible desease that robs entire families.
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@oyenkai (4394)
• Philippines
24 Feb 09
I'm not really sure in what stage she is already. But I fear that in a few more months, there'd really be nothing left in there about her family... I admire my dad because he seems to have come into terms with his mom's condition and he's been making extra effort into helping her feel more comfortable with her condition.
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• Canada
24 Feb 09
Thats great that your dad has come to terms with the condition. Its definately not an easy thing to do. Good for him for being so supportive, and you too for visiting. Good luck in the future and hope that you too will be able to cope.
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@rsa101 (38166)
• Philippines
24 Feb 09
I know it is painful there but then you just have to understand her situation right now. It is really hard to accept that your beloved grandma is not able to recognize you anymore but then just be yourself when dealing with her and go as if she was normal. If she forgets you then you just have to remind her every now and then and let her feel that you are her granddaughter that you used to be. As far as i know there are times that those memories do come back for a short while and if you happen to get one of those moments then treasure it and show your love before things would go back to where she is. Just continue on and hold on to her as long as she lives and in time you will not feel the pain anymore.
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@reanne (83)
24 Feb 09
awww... dat is soo sad... coz like i was watching this film the other day and the wife got that disease and it;s really hard because she is trying to remember everything even her her husband but then his wife keeps on 4getting it.. i was crying because it's so sad to think that someone really close to you will just sudenly 4get you because of a certain disease... so shameful..:(....
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@jashley1 (746)
• United States
24 Feb 09
Hello there. I'm very sorry to hear your story with your grandma. I have a really close friend who is going through something similiar. She was raised by her grandma though, and when she went to visit her after some 5 or 10 years (they live in Canada), her grandmother did remember her for a moment's time and then forgot. I really don't have anything or any type of experience in that area except for watching some films related to the matter like the "notebook". All I can say is keep loving her and hope that a cure will come out soon. I hope things get easier. Stay strong!
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@lynnemg (4529)
• United States
24 Feb 09
This is sad. I went through the same thing with my Grandfather. He would seem like he knew who I ws at first, but then, he would draw a blank and mistake me for someone else. I remember one day, my kids and I were there to visit, and in less than five minutes, he asked me who I was and whose boy my son was at least 5 different times. It was hard to explain that to my son. My other kids were outside playing, so they didn't see it or hear it. Alzheimer's is one of the saddest diseases to watch a person go through. My advice to you is to cherish each and every moment when she does remembe because they do get fewer and more far between. In the end, my Grandfather didn't know any body anymore, not even the people that were there every day.
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• United States
24 Feb 09
when my grandfarther was at a nursing home i met 3 ladys with Alzheimer every time i went up to one of them ida i was a diffrent person i told her my name but she would froget and the next time i would be mary or sarah another lady thalami loved to hum toons i would sit there huming to her because when i talked to her she would just lafh and smile at me the third one was Violante so i tried to avoid her a bit but occisanily said hi to her too
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@albert2412 (1782)
• United States
24 Feb 09
Have tried to help your grandmother by trying to get rid of the alzheimers? Have you cut down on your grandmothers exposure to aluminum or tried chelation to get rid of the aluminum? I am just asking.
@zandi458 (28102)
• Malaysia
24 Feb 09
It is indeed sad to know that your grandma is suffering from alzheimers. This disease normally linked to old folks. I am afraid you have to be patient with her and try to understand her situation. It is often said that we should always make our brain work and cultivate new interest so that our mind will not deteriorate when we become really old.
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@Amber4106 (540)
• United States
24 Feb 09
This is one of the unfortunate things about life. Growing older is never easy, and when things like this happen, it can feel almost unbearable. When my grandma was near the end of her battle against cancer, she didn't really know what was going on, and looked at us with such a blank expression. I was very close to her and it broke my heart to see her in the condition that she was in. When she was really ill, I couldn't even go into her room to see her. I was at her home the morning that she passed away, and I couldn't even walk by her room. It was so hard to deal with, and it was easier to just ignore it than face reality. My daughter was born at 11:36 A.M. on January 8 of this year....three years to the day and hour that my grandma passed. That's something that is truly miraculous and I'm sure I'll never see anything like that happen again! I look at my daughter and remember all of the wonderful times I had with my grandma, and what a beautiful woman she was. I think that was her way of letting me know that she was there when my daughter came into this world.
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@fasttalker (2796)
• United States
24 Feb 09
It is so sad to have to go through this with a loved one. Unfortunately I have been there and done that. Being supportive is one of the best things you can do. I know how hard that must have been for you. Sometimes when you try to correct them they get very irritable so you're better off to just let them go. Enjoy the moments that you can and stay strong!
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• Australia
24 Feb 09
I can relate to how you are feeling. I went to visit my grandmother today at her nursing home. She's almost 91 years old and up until New Year's she was doing relatively well and remained coherant and fully aware of most things in life. But then she started having strokes. Today was the first time she didn't know who I was though. She thought I was just a random staff member trying to take her to lunch. I told her who I was.... but she didn't really understand. Very heartbreaking.
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• China
24 Feb 09
I am so sad to hear that,but please feel it is normal beacause your grandma is growing older and older.My grandma is 86 years lod now,but she remembers me though I just go back home every half a year.Your grandma forgot you,but i believe she remembers you in her heart.Don't be worried about this.Wish you have a nice day!
@jiutian (20)
• China
24 Feb 09
I have once read a story about the alzheimer.An old lady had a alzheimer and she can't remember anyone of her family except her own daughter.Because of the disease.She behaved crazily,once in a party,she put a lot of food into her own pocket when there were so many guests present at the table.this unnormal action made everyone embarrassed.but when her daughter stop her,she became angry.and said: "don't rob of my food ,this is for my Maomao."Her daughter can't help crying on hearing this .Only she knew Maomao was her nickname.and she understand.how deep mom's love for her.she can't even remenber her husband due to the alzheimer.but she do remember her own daughter even with alzheimer.this story really touched me.and when I read about this ,it naturally occurs to me.
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• China
24 Feb 09
You should often go to see her if you have time. We should make old people rich and colorful.
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