Do you ever feel left out?

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I'm having one of those days where I just feel down for no apparent reason. I substitute at my daugher's elementary school in the library. I was there only for the morning. The school was having a luncheon to which I contributed a crock pot of chili. They have these for the teachers & staff every month or so to show our appreciation & it was 4th grade's turn (my daughter is in the 4th grade). The librarian & the aide for whom I was substituting wanted me to have lunch with them. I really didn't feel comfortable doing that because I am only there some of the time & I feel that the luncheon is for the fulltimers. I turned them down even though they pressed the issue. Then they started gossiping & "talking shop". For some reason I started feeling uncomfortable. I was ready to go home & be with my dog. I must be a loner or something, I don't know. I must also add that I applied to work as a library aide at the new elementary school that will be completed in fall of this year. I think then I will feel more comfortable with my surroundings & not left out. Anyone else been in that situation where something just doesn't feel right?