I'm Not Good Enough!?!?

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Well, to everyone who is keeping up with my "crush" on my FedEx Driver, then here is a new UPDATE if that's what you want to call it. There really hasn't been a whole lot that has been going on as far as "getting a date" goes, but I think things are progressing just fine. I flirt, he smiles and occasionally give me a flirt back. LOL On Monday, he had the day off, so I didn't get to see him, but Tuesday when he came in, I was gone on my forklift getting some product, when I came back my co-worker said, "He's looking for you". I didn't know what my co-worker was talking about and then around the corner was my FedEx driver. I said, "Looking for me huh? Are you wanting to give me a hug today?" and I smiled of course. He stayed and talked to me for about 5 or 10 minutes. His friend (one of my co-workers) came over and tried getting us to talk about hooking up this weekend, well, in a way he did I guess. The FedEx Driver is going out of town this weekend and my co-worker was saying how I should go too. Yeah, that would be nice, huh? LOL And if you are wondering, yes, I got a hug before he left. *ALL SMILES* So, yesterday he came in and he had two skids full of packages to pick up. When he came in I took my forklift and took the first skid to the door for him. I got off the forklift while he was putting the packages in his truck and I would turn each package so that it was ready for him to scan and he didn't have to search for the tag. I did mention to him that it was Wednesday (HUMP DAY), it was part of my "flirting" for the day. After we got done with all the packages, I asked him if he was ready for that "HUMP", he was down in his truck and smiled and said, "Well, come on and get down here". Oh, you have no idea how bad I wanted to jump down in that truck. LOL After he left for the day all the guys around me kept teasing me telling me that I wouldn't have done that for any other driver. I was just like, "So? And your point is?" They said that I gave him "special" treatment. Well, I can't deny that I did because I did. LOL But one of the men I work with said, "Don't you know he probably has women all over him". He was implying that I wasn't good enough, well, I have already determined that I'm not going to let anyone make me feel like I'm not good enough. Yes, I know the FedEx guy is hot, but I will never know if something would happen if I don't try, so try I will and if something happens then it does and if it doesn't then, well, it just wasn't meant to be. I have it all in God's hands, I know if it is His will then it will happen. Okay, so now back on to today's events. LOL He came in today and I asked him if he was ready for my "special treatment". He came over and said, "Well, yes" and he put his head on my shoulder. I then told him what all the men were saying about me helping him yesterday. He said, "Well, I'm a special guy. They are just jealous". We talked for a couple minutes and then he was off again. So, now I can't wait to see him tomorrow. Man, that sounds corny, huh? LOL Have you ever had anyone make you feel or try to make you feel like you weren't good enough for someone else? I'm just curious. I mean, maybe I'm not good enough, but I'm not going to fall prey to feeling that way.