stuck up with a relation.... badly... wanna die... please help

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hey people... for those who had been reading my previous discussions already might be knowing and for all those who read my this discussion as the first one, let me tell that i am a man of relations... i love making them... and i find it more amicable to sustain them for long.... had been a pride for all the people I had been into a relation with.... friendship for me is before god and heavens!!! I live in a hostel and share a room with another guy.... wth whom I had been living for more than 2 years now... in this time we had been quite a close.... friends... buddies... best buddies.... brothers.... brothers for life time... and what not... it is not that he doesnt care or love me... but he never shows... ok I agree showing isnt important... i even agree he is an aggressive guy... a very very short tempered....he takes me as his elder brother... though we r of the same age... and since an elder brother... he loves me... repsects me a bit(not too much to show)... we had a quarrel a few days back in which he slapped me twice or thrice and hit me again n again... with each stroke of his... they were not falling on my head or cheek but my heart... and above all when the entire fault was his!!! Actually we were going somewhere...the place was new to him and we , like got apart in the bus station... and so got frightened and thought I have left him... hence when I found him... he was onto my head ... red heated!!! the quarrel resolved... and he apologised a 100 times that he should not have raised his hand onto me... infact in any case even i cannot remain angry with him for long... so we r back to the normal happy life... but things still pinch... and disturb... I am unable to forget those slaps... those physical fights that we had(though me had a numerous before too, and I hardly remember any now) so why is this one disturbing me people.... I dont know wht to do... please help... m i like.. 'loosing on him now???',...coz I dont want to if I am