Jealous or Not? Is it Normal?

Thank you so much for your response. It really would help me. Weekdays are our free time. During saturdays we'll have our own plans and sundays we're together. WE might not spend our whole day together but at the end of the day, we still have each other.

I am trying to understand her sometimes but it really hurts. It's more better when we are not sharing a room together. She used to knock on my door and tell everything she would like to share and brought some food that we are going to share with. I miss her. You are right I really have to make new friends and have new friends and I will try new things without her. We are not having fight, right. We'll just having our own ways of expressing ourselves. The thing is she is still my bestfriend.

I am trying to understand her sometimes but it really hurts. It's more better when we are not sharing a room together. She used to knock on my door and tell everything she would like to share and brought some food that we are going to share with. I miss her. You are right I really have to make new friends and have new friends and I will try new things without her. We are not having fight, right. We'll just having our own ways of expressing ourselves. The thing is she is still my bestfriend. I understand that you are not having a fight and that you two are having your own ways of expressing ourselve. This is OK and encouraged as we all are our own individuals. If we were all alike, life could get rather boring awfully quick. Just smile and appreciate her for who she is and what you do like about her instead of focussing on what hurts you about the way your relationship is/has developed. I know what you mean about sometimes it really hurts and that you misse her. I used to be super close to my sister. One day things changed. Suddenly we were not close like we were before. Not because of anything in paticular, just happened. Over the years she has come back into my life. As we are not able to be as close as we used to be due to our schedules and locations, we do have a good realtionship now and can talk about anything still. I understand how you must feel. I also understand how becoming room mates may have helped this change in her take place but I also consider that people do change, we get older and our interests change. Have you ever tried to talk to her about what you have told us here and what you have said in your comment to my response to your discussion? Maybe she has no idea of what you are feeling. Perhaps that would give you the chance to ask a question or two so to gain the understanding that without, seems to be troubling you. I am not saying to tell her, that would be up to you because if she again, doesn't reciprocate, like she has in the recent past, you would be setting yourself up to be let down. Honestly, I think that it is better for you to move on and engage in other friendships. Trying to understand the actions of another, especially when it has a bad effect on us can be way more troublesome than what it is even worth. I want to say, don't waste your time. What difference is it going to make anyway? It isn't going to change the situation any, right? Stop thinking about her and concentrate on yourself and finding new ways to fulfill yourself. Keep a journal. You can get really neat USB storage devices and some are password protected. These are great for digital journals. Just use word pad. Writing helps a great deal but do get out, even if it is by yourself. The sights, smells and people are great stimulation for our minds, especially when we are feeling down. Meeting others will come. You will be fine. Thank you for your comment.

We never had a fight. She's always asking me if I wanted to come with them but I refuse because of allowance. I think she's still care for me it's just she can't pay for both of us during the trip, right.

I am just a room-mate not a bestfriend. That's so sad for me. I can't accept it. Before I accept her offer to be my room-mate, I really think it is not a very good idea. I had a room-mate before and you are right she treated me just a room-mate not a friend. She doesn't care if I am waiting for her from her date and didn't even bother me to call. But I don't think my bestfriend just treat me like a room-mate. But I will make friends with others. Life must go on.

You have a point. I am trying not to get addicted to her but every time I see her it's like I should say something for her to know that I need her.

Yes you are right. Every time we are talking about love life and I ask her about why is she doesn't say yes to her suitor. She said she doesn't want yet. You have a point that she might not comfortable talking about it.

Maybe I haven't really know her at all. I love my bestfriend and I will not loss her.

Thank you for your response. Yes, I do have a little something that she didn't aware of and good of.

I don't want to loss her as my bestfriend, anyway. I just have to accept the fact that having the same curly hair doesn't mean that we are the person. We are unique in different ways and I have to find my happiness in my uniqueness.

That is true...you may have been counting on her to be "perfect" best friend because of your curly hair or other things you had in common at first, but no matter who you find to be your friend whether they are exactly like you or completely opposite, they are your friend because you like to be around them, and they around you. And when you find a really good friend, you should keep your own identity, no matter how they change. You must be confident in you, no one else.

It's alright. I having nothing to offer but my friendship.

It's not so serious and there's nothing to worry, you are right. Thank you for that.. Right for privacy should be respected.

Yes we do have a time for bonding. It's weekdays, saturdays or sundays. We cook food together, malling, or stay at home watching tv or reading books. May be I am expecting so much from her. It's not because I am telling everything to her. She have to do the same for me,right. It's my bad.