do you meditate...and what about..?

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i think about becomming old quite a bit,how short life is and how pointless it feels alot of times.also,how unfair it is for many,and how its weird that theyr'es lots of people with millions or even billions and then,theyr'es many with no money and barely any food or water. i try not to dwell on the latter because its really not for someone like myself to dwell on as continous thought.i have been struggling horribly financial wise and i've been having to borrow and beg for financial assistance and nobody wants to hire me anymore except for trucking companies and i sure as all heck do not want to join a trucking company or be a trucker or live the trucker life. i'd go totally bonkers to put it lightly. it used to be so easy to get work and i used to work for this one beverage company as a delivery driver and it was great.those were great days and times but unfortunately,the company eventually went out of business and they were bought by another company which wouldnt hire me despite my experience and solid track record. after struggling for awhile and bumming around alot,i eventually landed a good job as a beverage merchandiser and i kept the job for almost a year but i felt compelled at the time to get an even better njob which i felt i could get because of my experience.i soon eventually found myself ready to be hired at the ultimate job but i was turned down at the last second because i couldnt find they're processing and orientation headquarters,which was deep in nyc which i dont know well at all. well,eventually,i got into security and i was doing it for over 2 years but i left this one company because of different reasons at the time and i know now that i should've stayed had i known just how bad it would soon get as far as landing jobs goes...its just that,geez...things have gotten so unbelievably horrible out there as far as landing a job.it is just unbelievably incredible how the job market has gone into shambles for so many including myself. i live in pennsylvania in the monroe county area by the way and it is just unreal. i cant help but ponder away that this has got to be a sure sign or cluefull indication that we are near the end of times,or end of days. i feel like,if i dont land a job really soon,i may as well eat pasta until my stomach blows up.seriously though,how and why did things get so incredibly hard with landing a job...?