how to deal with trauma?? my story about being hit by a truck, while pregnant.

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a few years ago i was struck by a truck, while on my bike. i was 27 weeks pregnant. it was just turning spring, and i was an avid bike rider, and i was feeling REALLY good so i decided to start bike riding again.. my belly wasn't too big and i was in good shape. unfortunately, i was in the wrong place at the wrong time. a truck pretty much turned into me as i was going in front of him (thought he gave me the signal to go). he sped up quite a bit to make the turn, and hit me while doing it. i remember how loud it was when my hand smacked into the hood of the truck. and then i remember my shrilling scream. it's all a blur from there. all i remember thinking is oh my god, he's going to run over my belly, i'm going right under his tires. he stopped in time though..i SORT OF remember getting up in the middle of a 4 laned road, full of adrenaline and SHOCK, and running out of the road towards the driver who was out of his truck by then. i didn't feel any pain at that time, i went up to him and SCREAMED IN HIS FACE. "WHY DIDNT YOU LOOK MY WAY! I AM PREGNANT! YOU COULD HAVE KILLED MY BABY" i just remember screaming that for so long until i FINALLY got hit with the pain, and onlookers rushed me to a grassy area to lay me down. that's when i had realized my pants were wet, and i thought my water had broke, but i'd soon realize i had peed my pants from shock.. i also realized just HOW bad my leg was throbbing. i wasn't bloody, i didn't have bones sticking out, but my left thigh was killing me. there must have been 30 people around me at this time running into stores and back with cold wet towels and calling 911 etc. i was in complete shock. but the pain was bringing me back to life.. my baby was ok :) they checked on him first, and he was having hiccups lol so he was fine. they got to ME hours later, while in excrutiating pain. they ruled out it wasn't broken, but it was already purple and starting to swell big time. they told me to buy some crutches and go home. these doctors were stupid. i couldn't walk, even with the crutches, the pain was too much. i couldn't pee or shower on my own. i couldn't do ANYTHING and i was pregnant :( a week later the pain was just too much, and the skin on my thigh was burning like it was on fire. i ran myself back to the ER and they admitted me to the ER right away. my entire thigh had turned black. it seems that when the truck hit me, my bicycle seat had turned into my thigh crushing it. i had developed a huge hemotoma and infection deep inside my thigh. they had to cut a hole and drain it and HOLY MOTHER! THAT HURT. then for MONTHS after that i had to have a nurse come to my house, every single morning, to repack the hole..as they kept it open for many months, even after my son was born i was still tending to the wound. to this day, i am terrified of vehicles and being anywhere near them. is there any way to get past this?