Improving myself

well, let me tell you that I understand exactly where you are coming from. I was a terrible person up until about a year ago...I had done something very wrong and hurt someone a lot. I decided to be a better person, but the only way to do that is to examine why you are the way you are. Most people are not born mean, they are made that way due to life experiences. I would suggest that you read a book called "Anatomy of the Spirit"....it is a great book and it helped me learn a great deal about myself. I am a better person today because of it. There are other things that I have to do on a daily basis too, like remind myself of karama, but the change is not something that happens over night. if you would like a more personal approach and help, I am willing to be a reference person for you. it is worth the work, and i am happy to share my experiences with you so that you do not feel alone. :)

I apologize, as I'm not here to offer tips. But to sit in and observe while others offer you tips that I may use in my own life. See I'm not a people person like, at all. I don't want friends but I would like to be open to the opportunity of enjoying someones company. I don't want to walk the streets smiling all the time because that'd be weird. But I want people to stop asking me why I walk around like I'm mad at the world all day.