how many boyfriends or girlfriends do you have?

HI MYLOTTERS!!!! this is a very tragic question for me :0 because i have never been in such kinda relationship but i had and have so many true crushes whom i really liked very much :)i wanna marry one but he loved somebody else n i never dared to say him anything don't know why may be i had fear that he might say me no so.....i know i've done a very foolish thing of not saying it to him but i don't have ay other option either...

i had a gf before and i still love her

i have three serious relationship and a bunch of relationship that are not serious and some are just infatuation. my last serious relationship ended in a tragic way, an event that no one would ever dreamed off to happen to them, she passed away.