Am I not a human?

I appreciate your concern but he is the Chairman and there is no one higher than him. However, the people on the Management Board know how hard I work and so they have blocked him. The result being is that he is even more unkind as he wants me to leave. I cannot give him anything to take back to the Board that would make me lose my job. It is o.k. The day I leave I will quietly tell him what I think of him. Blessings

He will pay for being this rude. I am really so sorry.

I am so sorry to know that this person is still troubling you. Can't you just complain to someone who has more authority, and a calm head. I truly hope and shall pray that this "dreadful man" walks away from your work life. I have got a suggestion though, can't you give him a tight tongue lashing and if he threatens you about your work you can counter threaten him about somthing. Surely this pest must have secrets which he wont prefer to share. Just meant a suggestion and maybe it is downright stupid. Thank you so very much for the blessings.

Yes you got it right. Some people tend to not take me seriously when I show I am mad. Problem is even when I want to get mad, I just can't act the way a mad should be. I do not know how. I just learned it about two years ago. When I was in college my friends and classmates always make fun of me (but in really mean or intentional) and they always bully me because they said that I am the kindest person they have ever met. It is not that I do not get mad. I get mad but I do not know how to show it. I remember when I was really mad I was arguing with a my fellow house boarder (a girl 5 years younger than me) I was talking to her calmly then I started talking very fast until I was shaking! That was the first time I got really mad. Still not shouting but just shaking and all my hands and face are red! So I guess it has something to do with my upbringing. My great grandmother never got mad at me and I grew up in the province where most people are calm and kind. Anyway I am trying now to be more real with what I really feel. Because not showing real emotions has bad effects especially when they get accumulated. So I am watching people's act when they are mad so I could at least get an idea on how to do it. Do not take this seriously but take this as part of reality. That we all need to get the anger we have inside, in a right time and place.

Hmmmm well i think it is not about only getting mad and expressing it dear friend. What I believe is that do you really openly laugh or is it just a smirk or a smile to convey that you are happy. Because that is the way I probably behave, I tend to hide every true emotions of mine. It helps a lot of times but it has got many disadvantages also. Well one thing more which I can think of as of now is, since you are a kind and gentle person i wish that you remain that way. It is certainly not cool to show up public tantrums. I am indebted for your valuable thoughts and views.

Hi Yori, It seems that is very much like me. I hide my true emotions. But i have observed that it doesnt help. The pent up anger, hidden inside keeps on accumulating and I believe affects us in the long run. I think we should be true to our emotions and openly express it, people tend to take advantage if you are not good at displaying your emotions appropriatly. Thank you so much for the response.

HI Archie, Human Phobia, yup I belive I have a problem with human beings too. Big one infact. But thats life we are bound to accept and live with it. I'll hopw that situations around us shall improve and there would be "Human Beings" around us. Thank you for the response.

Yup it hurts, and it hurts a lot when someone close to you misbehaves and try to take advantage of you. But truly friend I wonder how I couldn't display my anger when I was on the brink of sanity. I just swallowed the ridicule. But as of now I won't. I will be carrying a face with true emotions on it. Thank you so much for the response.

HI Butterfly, I agree to each and every single word you said. I had developed this habit of keeping my emotions within myself. I think circumstances have compelled me to do so. But not anymore. You dont know how inspirational your response have been to me. Thank you so much.

You are most welcome dear friend, I am glad that it has helped you. Have a wonderful day and I wish you all the best!

Thanks a ton !!

You know what dear friend, if you are too honest about yourself people would take so much of advantage of you that you probably would lose count. The fittest way of survival in this damn world is to "pretend". These words come from deep within. Trust me you shall be called wise you will be appreciated if you can hide your feelings. But the question is for what??? Is it really worth, I guess not. What say? Thank you for the response.

Ummm... truly friend I am confused. I dont get the clear picture and if you could kindly explain further then I would be more than Happy. Thanks for letting me know your view.

Hi, First of all thanks a lot, that you bothered to make the point clear. For me to make myself crystal clear with a beaming face is virtually impossible. It is because the kind of people I have to deal with on my daily life. But hats off to you that you can do it, you must be an excellent communicator. Thank you again.

Very simple. I try to be assertive, but without shouting or anything. I say my point, sometimes even with a smile and the other person does not shout back at me, but we manage to create a conversation where I express my views and the other part expresses his or hers and maybe we come to an understanding. This method has worked with both adults and young people.

Well I know what you mean exactly, by the proverb. But I am tired of being "wise" . I just want enough freedom to display an emotion which I feel like. Hope you understand what I mean. If I am happy I want to carry a happy face not a serious visage portraying that I am so mature that I can conceal the true emotion I feel like. Well sometimes to vent out your frustration isn't bad, right? I think that is ANTI-AGING in true sense. Thanks for the response.