you cant help who you love....

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ok so i have been dating this guy, i have been with him for almost 4 years. And i love him and alo have two beautiful boys by him.. he was my first in most areas and together we share a lot of first with our kids.. when we first met ( as taco bell employees ) he flattered me, and whistled at me, and made me feel so special. no one ever baught me flowers before, no one ever said i was pretty ( who i did not feel like they were being a perv. ) he was always opening the door for me, and pushing out my chair, and being a real man sort of speak. which he is seven years older then me. But i love him, and i always will no matter what happens between us.. but i look at things more differently in alot of area that others would give up on. when i met scott, he was just gettiing out of jail, and needed some help.. so i started to hang out with him, and help him get to his probation visits he had to go to once a month to a town that was 45 minutes away. and sometimes i would pick him up for work.. He would take me camping,and then we would go down into some caves, and he took me to the movies.; and everything was great, perfect. then i found out i was pregnant, and we were so happy, always wanted a child, and there for about a year thought i could not have any. and when i was about fivemonths preg. he told me he had cheated on me and felt bad about it, and he needed to get out and be alone to think about everything, and i told him he knew where the door was. so my mom kicks me out of the house, and told me she was not raising another child,and that was that, it was december, and cold, so i would stay with a few friends for a few nights and then go to another ones house, cause i literally has no where to go. But i still love him, he helped me so much, and got me out of some real bad situations, like my mom was a total B*&%$ and as soon as i turned 18 scott moved me out of her house, but we let our apt go when i found i was preg. cause it had alot of leaks and land lord wouldnot fix them. so mom let me move back in with scott. but everytime he comes back i take him back, and he dont give me a sob story and i dont ask, i think that when he realizes that he was not happy he comes back, but see, i dont see how he wants to find someone else, because the way i was raised is that the guys only job in the house is to take out the trash, and thats it. i wash all his clothes, i clean the house, i do the dishes, i change all the diapers when i am home, i feed the family, i cook, i work and make the money. and the only thing i want him to do is take the trash out, because it would offend me to see him clean or wash a dish, and i tell him that... but yet he has cheated on me atleast 4 times, in four years, and everytime he comes back i make him get tested for std's cause i have never been with no one else but him, and i am 21 now, and if i ever got something it would be because of him, never me.. what is your opinion on this, what do you think i should do?