Rejected;-(

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I feel a little low! Let me explain! I have searched for my nieces and nephew for somtime now. Well years! I found my oldest brother 5 years ago. He is like 40 something and I am 29. I saw him a few times growing up. I was not raised with him. We had different moms. Mine was much younger. We also pretty much grew up with diffrent dads. Mine was out of my life at 13 and I was raised by a wonderful man. I met my nephew and niece when I was 10. Shortly after that I heard my brother had another daughter and that he and his wife split up. That was the last I saw them. I only saw my brother a couple of times after that. Then my older sister was dying. I am not sure why I did it but I decided to find my brother. Maybe at the time I needed that connection. It blew up in my face. My brother was not a nice man. He conned me out of thousands of dallors. He also talked my parents out of money. He was invited to my family reunion because he was my brother even though he was not related to anyone their. He got drunk and basically ruined it. He made my mom cry. I love my brother because he is my brother but I know I can't have a relationship with him. I don't think he is capable of having a relationship with anyone. He is an acholic and he has hurt a lot of people. I asked him about my nieces and nephew when we were still on talking terms. He gave me the wrong information on them. He had me searching all over CA for them. He acted like he had a great relatinship with them but never would give me their contact information. I finally found them on my own after years of looking. They are great. They were adopted by a really nice man. They have a wonderful life and loving family. They have everything they wouldn't have if they had been raised by my brother. Two kind of talk to me. The younger one wants nothing to do with me because I am her biological dad's sister. She is mad at me and upset I found her. I never got to meet her but I understand why she feels this way. I don't know what my brother did but from their reaction I can tell it was bad. I apologized to her for making her upset. I told her I was glad she was doing well and I gave her my word I would not contact her again. I won't either. I know it is the right thing to do. Yes it hurt to hear but I can understand. It hurts to be rejected but I am glad they are doing well and they did not have to grow up in the middle of my brothers mess. I have no relationship with my brother. I don't have a really close relationship with most my family. I have a good relationship with my parents and with one younger brother Jacob. Sometimes I feel like an outsider. I have a loving family. A good husband. I have a wonderful daughter. I have been in the Marine Corps for 10 years. I have an associates and I am going for my bachelors. I don't think I am a bad person. But it still hurts to be rejected! Has anyone else felt this way?