insecurities

@mkchaves (530)
Canada
May 8, 2009 1:18am CST
what makes a person feel insecure the most? I am a person who is very insecure, I am disappointed of my early adulthood. Well, I am only 22, i have been trying to land a paying job like forever now and yet no one is hiring me. I tried to get "voluntary" experiences to beef up my resume and yet it's frustrating to know that here in the Philippines, you need some "backer" to get into an institution. Talking about professional! Damn. Everytime I follow up for work, I get answers like "don't follow up - we'll just call the applicants". I have been going back and forth, and still hopes for an opening for me. A friend who recently passed the board exam, applied at the hospital because I told her that they may be hiring, she got in. I feel so insecure. :( and frustrated. Is there something wrong with me? Am I not intelligent enough? i know and my colleague knows that i perform well as a nurse now..Especially with a volunteer experience. Anyway, Her dad knows a doctor who works there.. I keep telling myself that. I know it's not right. But, it gives me comfort to know that I did not get in because I don't know anyone in the Hospital. :( Sometimes I cry because I don't know how and when I'll be able to help my family. Sometimes I can't sleep because I have become such a burden. I have graduated and passed the Licensure Examination for Nurses 2 years ago and still here - volunteering. I'm almost reaching my 2 years volunteer experience. I am still hoping that one day, I'll reach the goals I've been trying to have for so long. I am still a little pessimistic about the future. i hope it won't be too long for things to happen my way or else i'll go NUTS thinking about my insecurities and frustrations. :(
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oyenkai
@oyenkai (4394)
• Philippines
13 Jul 09
That seems like a real big lot to handle. How are you holding up so far? You know, it's actually quite true that you often have to "know the right people" in order to get around here in the Philippines. I know several nurses who did get in because their parents knew someone from the admin or something. And you know, it's actually very hard for nurses to get jobs in our country now. We have SO MANY nurses because everyone is hoping to work abroad because there is such a demand outside. Unfortunately, not all nurses can leave the country just because they want to or just because they have the skill, not even if you have the experience! -- it still comes down to: do you have the Visa? And can you afford to go to the states or anywhere simply to try your luck? I hope you hang in there! And just in case, could it perhaps be that you can achieve your goals without pursuing your career as a nurse? :) Thanks for the response on my discussion :)