I'm feeling lonely tonight

@jakill (835)
May 30, 2009 3:26pm CST
Yesterday I took my granddaughter back to her mother. We meet half way between our homes, which are 100 miles apart. When the weather is good, as it was yesterday, and we have time to spare, we meet in the car park of a farm that opens to the public so children can enjoy the animals and play areas. We were there for over three hours and then everything was transferred from my car to my daughter's and we drove home in opposite directions. We had spent several days all together at my sister's house by the sea in Devon, then my granddaughter stayed with me for a few more days while her mother went home alone to deal with some commitments. Although I get tired these days when I'm caring for the five year old, we have lots of fun together. Now there's just me and my hubby, who is tucked up in bed, and I feel quite lost without her. Are you far from your family. If so, how do you cope?
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@kykidd (6812)
• United States
30 May 09
Sometimes it is hard to live away from your family. I think it is harder on the grandparents than it is the kids though. My mom lives about 475 miles away from myself, my sister and my brother. They both have kids, and I know my mom misses them so. I guess she has gotten used to it over the years, because we all moved away around the age of 18, mainly for employment. Funny how we all three ended up in the same area through the years. After all of these years, I still miss my mom and we talk on the phone several times a week.
@jakill (835)
31 May 09
Well you're more than four times as far away from your family as I am. That must be very hard. Thank goodness for telephones.
@jakill (835)
31 May 09
Sorry, that should have been - away from your mother. Nice that you are nearer to your siblings.
@savypat (20216)
• United States
31 May 09
We just had a two and one half year old here for a week, it is a joy and very wearing. Here on the ranch you can't take our eyes off her for a second, there are many hazards for a city child here. We are so happy to see her and so happy to return her. Count your blessings for family
@jakill (835)
1 Jun 09
Thank you Pat. It's all so bittersweet, isn't it? And yes, I know I must count my blessings.
@smileonstar (4007)
• United States
31 May 09
HI, I always feel that everytime my family members go back home or somewhere far. My parents are in different country and they just came back here about a month ago. Now, they are back and I still feel lonely and my house feel so quiet or something. I hate to have this feeling but what can I do, if they dont want to stay here with us.
@jakill (835)
1 Jun 09
I'm sorry you are feeling lonely without your parents and hope you get over it soon. I'm feeling more back to normal now. We have to accept these situations.
@Chevee (5905)
• United States
31 May 09
I live alone no husband just myself. My children live close, my daughter has a set of twin boys and I hear from them often. I am within 5 to 7 minutes ride from them. They usually spend nights with me for now. They are getting older so I know my time is limited with them. They are getting to be teenagers and they will be hanging out with their friends more than their grandmother. Just cherish the time that you do have with your granddaughter. It sounds like you have a great relationship with your family. If my family was far away I would feel the same way and I don't know how I would cope with being that far away. I am sure things will get better for you hang in there.
@jakill (835)
1 Jun 09
Thank you Chevee. I do feel better now. It's just the initial wrench, I think. We do all have some lovely times together. I think of them as interludes, and I try to put everything else on hold while they are happening.
@ckyera (17331)
• Philippines
31 May 09
hello jakill... i know its really hard to be far to our loved ones, to our family. me, i've been away to my parents ever since my husband was assigned here where we live now. ijust see my parent once a year and just have one week to spend with them! huh! at first its really hard for me and i always cry and miss them so much even if i can talk to them over the phone, its still different. from my childhood up to the time i get married i,m never away to my parents! can you figure how difficult it is for me? but its a call of duty for my husband and as a wife i need to go with him. now, its been 3 years since we moved out and still there are times that i feel lonely and empty...i always miss my parents especially my mom...the laughters, the talkings and everything...but again i have to accept the fact that i am now married and live the way it is now and i'm glad my parents understands me and my husband is supportive in this matter and everytime i go home we cherish every moment that we're together! to cope up with the loneliness i feel, i call them, look at our pictures and think as if they we're just in the other room! huh! crazy! but i helps me...
@jakill (835)
31 May 09
It's sad that you are away from them, not because you want to for yourself, but out of duty to your husband. Hopefully that assignment will not be for ever so that you can be with your family more often. Also hope you have made friends where you are now. Sometimes we have to see our friends as our family. At least they can be as supportive if they are good ones.
@Mick1267 (16)
• United States
31 May 09
When I first got married, we moved to California, growing up in new York, this was my first time out of state and away from my family. It was so hard, my phone bill was so large because I was calling back home all the time. This was 17 years ago, now if we lived away with technology the way it is it would be so much easier, email, facebook, twitter, etc. There are so many different ways to communicate.
@jakill (835)
31 May 09
Yes, we do have to count our technical blessings, of course.
@ellie333 (21016)
30 May 09
Hi Jakill, I can understand the feeling, I myself live in Devon and all my friends and family hundreds of miles away or even abroad. I am estastic when they are here visiting but there is a void when they go. I haven't grandchildren yet but my own daughter is living in London right now, home this weekend :) but I will be sad Sunday night when she goes back. It has been a beautiful day today and I am so pleased you were able to spend so much time at the farm. Huggles. Ellie :D
@jakill (835)
31 May 09
Thank you Ellie. yes, times have changed. The world has got smaller and we all spread out. Oceans are worse than miles, even. I guess I'm lucky my folks are on this island. My daughter has worked and lived in Canada and the Netherlands in the past, but has been here since the little one was born.
30 May 09
Hi jakill, That is always the saddest part when they have to go, I remember when I used to live with my mum, my sister used to live in Germany as her late ex husban use be in the army and he was based there, the used to come over for thier holidays, my sister got twins so you can amagine what it was like, when the go back, oh it was terrible, the place was too silent and we missed them. Now the twins are all grown up and I am mrried and living quite a distant from all of them and I have no children so I am used to the quietness now. Tamara
@jakill (835)
31 May 09
Yes, the house is very quiet. At least we have more time for the computer.
@Jenaisle (14078)
• Philippines
30 May 09
I understand exactly how you feel. Luckily for me,it happens very rarely when the granddaughter leaves for the province for a day or two. The silence that would greet me when she's gone is "defeaning" . I would rather have my room topsy turvey but have her with me , than have it all squeeky clean in her absence. She's one highly spirited girl too and I sometimes have to keep double effort to be with her, but it would always be a fun time.
@jakill (835)
31 May 09
They used to say grandchildren are better than children because you can give them back when you feel tired. I suppose that still works when you live close enough, but not in the same house.
@jellymonty (2352)
31 May 09
Your lucky you have such a close family and I understand how you feel without having your grand daughter around. In my case I would do anything to run as far away as possible from my family as in my case my family members only want me when they need help but in good times I'm forgotten... But don't lose heart at least she's not a city or country away so you just enjoy the most of what is there now when she is around. If you feel that you can't cope with the loneliness you can always adopt an orphan or do some volunteer work to keep your mind of your loneliness
@jakill (835)
31 May 09
Thanks for your response. You're right. I just need to keep busy, and I have plenty to do so that's not a problem. I'm sorry you don't have a supportive family. Hope you have plenty of friends to make up for that.
@lelin1123 (15595)
• Puerto Rico
30 May 09
Oh I will be dealing with this situation probably next year and I'm not looking forward to it at all! My daughter, son-in-law, plus my beautiful 3 year old granddaugher will be moving to Florida. They have been living with me for the past 8 months in NM. My granddaughter and I are so close. I might be moving to PR but I will still have a bit of distance between us and I could cry just thinking about it. Coping once it happens will be hard but I guess I will keep myself busy hopefully writing a book or two. Plus making trips as much as I can. Its easier getting to Florida from PR then NM to Florida. People always told me wait till you have grandkids you will learn a whole different type of love more then you even had with your own kids and it is so true. I never believed or understood but now I do. Good Luck, best wishes and keep yourself occupied.
@jakill (835)
31 May 09
Thanks for your good wishes. I hope all works out well for you. Young people need to make their own way, but it's so hard to let them go.
@aikhong (661)
• Malaysia
31 May 09
Ya, i can understand how you feel when you're apart from your family members or loved ones. I am also far from my family now, as i am working at out station, five to six hundred kilometres away from my hometown. It was really a tough time being outside, without the care and concern from our family members. However, i've get used to it as time goes on, and learn to live independently outside. I think this is part of the process and this is life, when we've to try out new things ourselves and also strieve for the best to have a more successful life. However, for the elder ones, it will be quite lonely and bored to be at home when their children are all out of home for work, leaving behind them with the loneliness.
@jakill (835)
31 May 09
I left home myself at age 17. I remember my mother crying when she was seeing me off at the railway station, and not being very sympathetic about that. My own daughter went off on holiday to Crete when she was 17 and failed to return on her flight back. She'd met a bloke and wanted to stay near him so she got a job in a bar. Three months later she was home again but only long enough to get herself a job in Canada. It is harder for me now than it was then, and you are probably right in that it's I no longer go out to work and am not surrounded by other people, although I can always keep busy.
@protel87 (33)
• China
31 May 09
I am happy to share with I'm feeling lonely tonight . sometimes Ifeel so lonely with you feeling too the same .but I think so normal. lonely feeling is still in my body . thank you for sharing.
@jakill (835)
31 May 09
Thanks for your response. I hope you are feeling less lonely now. I feel better for sharing.