affection but in return hatred

Hello dear, I have a brother too and he is elder than me, 9 years elder than me, when we fight he beats me up and once he even hit me very hard on my heard that I fainted and land in the hospital. He also love me and I know because after the incient he took care of me but sometimes I get very angry at him an prefer to o not talk to him. Now recently my boyfriend was calling me and he pushed against the table to take the phone. I was hurt on my elbow and I prefered not to talk to him now. It has been more than 2 weeks since we havenot talked. He narrates many gossips against me and my boyfriend to my Dad and this makes me more angry. Since your brother is smaller than you and still there is a possibility you can convince him with your love and make him understand to respect you more as a girl and not to beat you. It is useless to say it to my brother because he thinks that he is elder so He is wiser.