In a deep depression

It is unfair that you and your son are suffering and experiencing life's misery while the father of your son lives in comfort. Doesn't he knows his son's situation right now? I can't understand why there are father like your son's father. An irresponsible jerk! Pardon my word but that's how I view them. COntinue to hang-on sis coz I believe life, as you have said,will get better for you in the end.

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Lagirl1966, I know life is hard, but please hang in there. I am still around and my depression has gotton worse too. My life seems to have the same problems as yours. All it takes is one crisis and you feel like your at the bottom again. To me it feels like 1 step forward and five steps back. You wonder how our ex husbands can live with themselves. They don't even seem to care about there ofspring. Just themselves. You are better than him remember that. Just take one day at a time and deal with each crisis as it happens. Don't sit around and think about what might happen. This is harder sometimes than dealing with somethings that are happening. So please, try not to worry about things until they happen and deal with one thing at a time. I understand completely how hard life can be, but we must hang in there.

The first thing I think you should do is to pray. God provides everything we need, we just have to believe in him and have faith. Problems should make us stronger and braver. Don't let problems defeat you. Why not try to read some books that will help you to have a cheerful disposition in life. Because I've been to depression, too. But the book tha tI read helped me to be more positive in life and to be happy. Try to take away the negative things in your mind little by little and soon you will be surprised that you are a new person.

Hi lagirl, I have been to the depths of depression before, and through the years it has gotten better for me without any medication. What truly worked for me was reading the Psalms and Galatians in the Bible. It wasn't an overnight remedy, but hour by hour, day by day, step by step. Even though the problems of life never end (there's always something that takes the wind out of our sails), reading my Bible helps my heart to get through it. Remember, hour by hour, you can get through it with God's help. Blessings to you.

HI, first of all I would like to share with you all the feeling you have so far. Dont feel bad and dont feel depress, it just hurt you and your son. I am sure, you will have another way to do this and nothing will end if you end your life in this way. Stand up and be strong for yourself and your son, he is waiting for you and he is watching you every single step you have been through. I know you are broke, so am I? I live just to pay my bills and just a little left over for us. However, I am a woman who has husband and two kids. my husband can't work cuz no one need him, he is trying every where... just every where but no luck for him at all. I do all the work, house, work and kids. Bills every where for me to pay, and sometimes I just can't fill up all of those bills but as soon as I have money I pay them right the way. what can I do if I am so down and doing this alone. However, I have to fight and fight for my family until the end. I dont care what will going on but all i know is getting myself up and be there for my children. I save every penny I have and always find way to get money, doesn't matter how much I earn each day. Can you work? try to go out and get a job, something that you can do. if you live depend on just someone else support, then you will not keep yourself going... you need to do something. hope you feel better and get well soon

Have you tried some therapy? any type, psichological, hypnotherapy, yoga? Following it up really changes your perspective of some things, but the main thing to do is DO NOT LET GO of what's helping you, be persistant. Maybe a stupid comment from my part, but since you're here, you know there are several ways you can generate some extra income online, right?

Hi lagirl, Is your ex under court order to pay you child support on the same day each month? Because if he is you can get him for of court? Also I know in the state I live in that if the ex is being a deadbeat father and not paying like he should you can report him to the state and they will dip into his paycheck for the child support and send you the check for it each month on the same day. I know 2 father's right now paying child support now because the state take's it out of their paycheck. Are you on disability? Everyone I have ever known who earns disability income usually can get into state housing programs so you don't have to pay very much on rent and sometimes have all utility's paid. I'm so sorry you are going thew this. Last year after I quit smoking I got very sick for almost 6 months. One infection right after another and I'm one person who never use to get any types of infections when I was a smoker! Lung infection,sinus infection,ear infection & throat infection- It was crazy and I was worried like crazy and depressed a lot. I had a CT scan, they found I had a tumor on my left ovary and I also found out I had gallstones . I had surgery and had the tumor successfully removed but I also was having muscle pain while all of this was going on, got tested and I found out last week I have fibromyalgia... I was pretty healthy in 2007. I think I have too much stress in my life sometimes. I found out my son had autism when he was 5 and it upset me very much when I found this out. Sometimes it's so hard to deal with things when life becomes overbearing and I think it sometimes can manifest in our health if stress levels are not managed correctly. Depression is sometimes hard to handle and people get in hole's so deep sometimes that it's hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel.But I honestly believe if a person has enough hope and & faith and tries to be positive and project positive energy into other people's life and into the universe that good things can happen. Even though I may have fibromyalgia, I'm taking some meds for it to help the pain and I'm actually having day's to where the pain isn't so much and my health seems like it has improved in other way's since I had the surgery. I guess the best thing to do is to take everything a day at a time and wish for the best and expect nothing more... Don't be afraid to ask for help also. Don't be afraid to ask for help from your friends,family,the state & etc. You have a son that needs you and looks up to you and you shouldn't have to suffer like this. There are people who care and help is there if you ask for it. Oh, you can get utility assistants threw some churches,also call you local DHS and ask if they are having any type of utility assistance or ask if they know who does have utility assistant programs so you can have help getting your electric paid.

T, please forgive me for not responding sooner! It's not that I didn't care but have been really busy. I hope by now things are better, are they? Please let me know for I am very concerned. I'd like to help in any way that I can so please let me know how things are in a pm if you don't want to do it here. In fact, I still have your phone number so maybe tomorrow I'll give you a call. Hold your chin up, it'll get better because it HAS TO! Hugs for you sweetie!!

I deal with depression and anxiety. I am on medication for it though. It helps out a great deal. But I am on 3 different kinds of medication for the anxiety and depression. I have lived with this all my life as well. And at times its not very easy to deal with. I know how you feel I would struggle a lot to when I was a single mother. But i was raising 3 kids by myself and it was very hard to keep up on all the bills. And the child support wasn't coming in like it was so pose to either. But things will get better. Is this the only site you are on to try and make money on? I am on another good site and I have had 2 payouts already of $25.00 each and getting ready to get another payout here real soon.

well really sorry for your situation. perhaps you can try to make the boy's father give some more money to you and your son since he's got his own house?

Hello, this must be hard for you going through all of this. I understand you have so much in your mind, so much problems to deal with in a very little time. You need to prioritize your problems. Assess which of those are easiest to solve. Think of which problems is actually "not a problem". Sometimes we deal with things so many things and forget to assess that some of those are not actually important. Do you have any financial support? You could perhaps burrow money first to your friends. But I am most concerned about your health. What do you mean by "my health have to go downhill 5 years ago"? What health problem(s) are you talking about? I hope everything will be fine in the future. It was good that you are seeking help and support to other people even in this online environment. Hope to hear more from you soon.

Yes true, brain thinks and changes based on situations, whereas heart is one, which feels and acts same and will hurts when we do wrong.

I don't know what happened to your marriage life but it's over now who cares what happen to your ex? does he even care about you? you and your son are enough things to think about and care for it's not too late to fight back, fight your depression first you have internet connection, try this link http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dnbzxMsjbIk write down the instructions so if you lose connection you can still practice it it's free you can do at home, only takes less than an hour every day it's your mind, not your body that is hurting you take medications that control it but not freeing you of it and yet it costs you money that you could use for more important things the exercise won't help you get money but it will help you free your mind why not try it for a week? it doesn't cost you anything and less than an hour a day once your mind is healthy, physical health will return you'll get your life back get a job etc basically live your life the way you supposed to and probably even cut back your medication it's not a one-day healing process, as you said you've lived with depression most of your life. but if you don't start now you will never recover from it.