In one of those Moods, do you ever
By ~Jodi~
@jeanena (2198)
Bucklin, Kansas
June 12, 2009 6:10pm CST
just get to the point you don't care who you piss off at you?? I have been on it the last few days. My blogs on M*Sp*** has sure shown it. Night before last (my sons birthday no less) I had a crappy crappy evening and night. It has really burned me so bad I can't seem to get myself out of this I don't give a crap mood i have been in since then. I got my first ticket ever and i am 45 years old. The seat belts in my hubbies truck have fallen apart and i mean that literally . The place you stick the metal piece into has fallen completely apart (Keep in mind this is the only transportation we have). A cop stops me and i show him why I didn't have my seat belt on. I guess since I am a legal citizen on the USA, I must have money and be able to fix the darn thing . Okay well fine i will take the ticket. I go drop my stuff off at home, and on the way to take my mom home (no wheels for her either). A KomKazee deer freaking leaps out of the ditch right out of my line of sight and wham I hit her. Pushed her a little ways and when the truck stopped she rolls 3 times, jumps up and bounds over the other ditch across a fence. Luckily I was coming into the little town of Belvidere and has slowed down to about 15 miles an hour, who knows what would have happened otherwise. I call my hubby and say I hit a deer .. first thing out of the Jerks mouth was how bad is the truck? I guess I would have felt better and wouldn't have such a mad on if he would have said are you guys okay?Then on my way home from Moms house I come with in inches of running over a Skunk, he was in the process of raising his tail as I passed him . Hahaha Stinky you missed me . It was pouring down rain, Less than 5 minutes later I ran smack dab over a Racoon. I cried the 10 miles left to get home. All in all it was a messed up crappy night and my mood has been since then.
I dont seem to care what anyone thinks (I am usually kind to a fault) If they are stupid I make sure they know I think so. I am sure this will pass soon (or am I forever scared?)
Ever have things change your attitude so drastically? Tell me about it .
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@nana1944 (1364)
• United States
13 Jun 09
Well, jeanena, as you know my landlord can change my attitude just by thinking of him. My give a dam* is busted and my don't give a dam* is kicked into high gear. That was a heck of a day and night. I will be so glad to get back to the old farmhouse. At least your in-laws are good people. I love these hills but at least I will be living a place where the landlord and landlady can be trusted. Plus the rent is cheaper. Don't let the s-o-a-b's get you down. I have to keep reminding myself of that. I just hope I can get my van running and my pickup or find a way to move them. Such simple things wrong with them and my strength in my arms (or lack of it) won't let me do it.
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@gabs8513 (48686)
• United Kingdom
13 Jun 09
Sweetie you certainly are not having a good time at all and I am so sorry to read this
You just need to get it out of your System, yes I have been like this and it lasted Months, it was 7 years ago when I was Diagnosed with my Illness and bullied out of my Job, I was withdrawn for months, snappy, didn't want to know, my Children who where 15 and 18 then had to put up with so much but they did well really well and they helped me so much they where always there and told me they loved me and will stick by me, they did and still do
So you see I think everyone has times like that
Warm hugs to you and you will get over it Sweet
Shout if you need me
@jeanena (2198)
• Bucklin, Kansas
13 Jun 09
I am telling ya Gabs it just hasn't been my day the last couple of them. Sometimes I think if it weren't for my mom and my kids I don't know what I would do. I know alot of it probley has to do with the fact my Mattie has grown up graduated got a job and moved out. She graduated and moved out in the same week. I have been on the road alot going over to watch the grandkids. I have been stressing about the car we are trying to buy , you know SSDD ..lol Hugs Jodi
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@gabs8513 (48686)
• United Kingdom
13 Jun 09
I am not surprised you are the way you are then, you have a lot to deal with there so you need to get it out of your System and you will be fine once you do
I am glad your Mum and Kids are supporting you on this
Hugs to you hope they will help a little bit
