Would you have ever thought this?

thats very good that you suspected how it was going to turn out. now that most of my life is behind me tho, i reflect on how strange its all turned out. nothing like i thought.

i figure when you was a child you never expected things to go so rough for you when you were grown also. you was lucky in some ways not to have to worry over your kids. it was very hard on them and me while raising them. in fact my one daughter gave her little girl up because of fear that she would be doing without things she missed herself as a child. no, i didnt raise them easy but i done the best i could and now things are good most times. she has relationship with her daughter today and it taught my daughter to get an education and career so she could have things. this is my one kid that sometimes holds the poor living against me the rest say, without bad times we would not have known good. also, they appreciate how hard i tried and worked and sacrificed. i had a few deadbeat husbands, i'll tell you. so, its like you said maybe a good thing you didnt have kids and put them through all this.glad your doing good girl. you deserve some peace in life.

Due to medical reasons I won't be able to have any children, to many female problems unless I want to spend about 20,000 I don't have to be able to fix it maybe. I do help out with my little sister alot and sometimes I have my niece and nephew here for weeks if not a month or so at times. So I do have children around me and that I help with. I am a godmother to some of them so I guess I will have to settle for that alone. I don't own a car and if I get a degree it would have to be online since I don't own a car and no way to get places unless I pay someone.

maybe you are still young enough? cant remember but i thought you said you had neice or nephew you help with? it would be nice if you could go back and get courses for school and your GED maybe. concentrate on something else so you wont be worried about your weight. you know sometimes some churches have school corses. dont really know but should be somewhere you could go for free.

No physical abuse, thank God. I know some people have suffered terribly from physical abuse. And thankfully now, my health problems are pretty well under control.

i guess you've had a terrible illness or was abused? well you've surely over come some hurdles.

WE all have done that for all the good it does.

oh and how many times i've looked back and thought how different things would have been if i'd done this or that differently.

oh my. i would have been shocked also. and amazed forever.

yes they are 6 years old now and i am still walking around with a natural high.

you are either a very strong person or you could forsee your future. you may be clairvoyant. did you know that? what really gets me is that most people actually cant remember things that happened when they were very young. i remember things from when i was 2yrs. but some dont believe me. unless it was someone there. this is cool. another person with a great memory.

me? never forsaw desk top, much less laptop computers or not being tied to the wall with a phone but about not having kid or getting married... one look at my baby sister and I said - nope, not having any of those....

oh im sure you have. you sound like such a great friend. bet you've made a lot of peoples stay on this earth a good one.

especially when you consider what you thought you'd do as a kid. i remember thinking i'd marry a rich man, that smoked a pipe,()who knows why, and had a mustache dont know how i came up with that. anyway, didnt even think of kids.

I wanted to be a writer, and I used to read a lot. I can see why you thought that, there are a lot of movies with men looking like that smoking a pie, and they look classic. ( I am amazed at women who wanted to be mothers when they were little, it happens and I am sure we amazed them as well).

and when you get my age, you will look back and say wow! cant believe i've done it all. this is a wonder.

i know what you mean. we are certainly all different and need to be happy with our choices or what fate hands us like what happened to me

its just such a wonder. when i look back at my childhood pics its hard to believe.

This is a universal phenomenon.lol

sounds like you want to concentrate on your career. and when you get my age, it just depends on if your glad of it or if "surprise, like me" you have a hubby and a bunch of kids

see having kids is not the only thing you can look back and be surprised at what you've really done in your life that as a child you would never have believed this could be how it all turned out for you.

yes, my oldest son here is thinking like that already. he has grandkids (the 2 i mentioned) and hes only 44yrs. i was 1 day 17 when i had him, and his wife had his daughter when he was just 17yrs. its hard to believe.

it sounds like you've done very well. i also wish i could have known things in my first marriage. i to was to young to realise what i'd done wrong. he was young also and we neither had the patience to see things through.

i know and like me you probably look at them sometimes and wonder how you could have done such an amazing, wonderful thing. wait till you have a big strong man that can look down at you and you cant believe this beautiful little baby became this big man and came from you!!

thanks. i also enjoyed reading yours and i can see you know what im saying.