I'm having trouble trying to mourn for Michael Jackson.
By II2aTee
@II2aTee (2559)
United States
June 26, 2009 11:47am CST
I know many of my friends are deeply hurt by the passing of Michael Jackson. I do not want to take anything away from their grief. But myself, personally, I am having a very difficult time mourning his death.
For two reasons.
Number one, I have a very positive outlook on death. I think that after we die our souls go to a better place and we become one with God again.
Be that as it may, Michael led a very turmoiled life the last few years. I do not believe in Hell as most people picture it, but I believe that the wrongs of this life carry over after you die. If you are carrying around bad vibes… or guilt as I believe he was… I think that all carrys over to the after life. I feel really bad for him.
I know…. He was a big star and and a rock icon and I do love his career before all the bizarre changes he inflicted up[on himself.
I just have a gut feeling that he was guilty of touching young children inappropriately, and he got away with it. I’m sorry…. I just cant seem to get over that. And to me I don’t care how famous, or rich you are. If someone troubles a child that taints them in my mind for LIFE. Id love to celebrate his musical career with everyone else, but the child molestation thing stops me from being able to do that.
Does that make me a bad person?
I do hope and pray that he did not. But I also have a logical and realistic mind. My gut feeling tells me ge has been carrying guilt around, and if that’s true I feel really bad for him now that his judgment is up to God.
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8 responses
@Sweetchariot (1718)
• United States
26 Jun 09
Michael Jackson was really not in my era, Elvis Presley was, but I still enjoyed alot of his songs, and I enjoyed watching him as a a great entertainer. I also watched some of the interviews with him that were televised a few years back, and have read some articles about him. I am not going to judge whether or not he molested anyone, because he was not found guilty of any one of them. Instead, what I got from those interviews, was that Michael was a very emotionally disturbed young man, and I have always felt terrible for him. I think he was a boy who lived with a father that demanded unbelievable things from his kids. He never had a chance to be just a kid, because he was thrown into the music world when he was very young. The kids were forced into living out their father's dreams, and supporting the family, when the father should have left that responsibility up to himself. Michael was forced to the forefront of their music career, he was the star of their group. At such a young age, that must of been alot of pressure put on him. Most people who have been damaged at a young age, continue on with their lives until they reach a certain age, and it all comes tumbling down ...they suddenly feel all the emotions that they had to experience when they were young. I believe that's what happened to Michael. He really didn't start acting strange until he was in his 30's, right at the time when most people experience this trauma.
I believe he was emptionally stunted...no real love from his father who just demaned them to practice, practice, practice, and he had no childhood. Should we be surprised then that he played out his life as a child, and hung around children all the time. He wanted what he never had, and he didn't want any other child to go thru what he did. He may have slept with kids in his bed, but his explanation of that was because he wanted to show them love....the love, that he didn't think he ever got as a child.
His brothers may have been strong enough to get thru life without emotional hangups, but not every child is the same. Some cannot handle the everyday pressures, and when you top that with the emotional abuse he had as a child, we shouldn't be surprised at the story of his life. My heart goes out to him, and I believe, now, that he is with God, smiling, laughing, and being a kid, but God only knows what he had to endure.
@II2aTee (2559)
• United States
26 Jun 09
Beautifull response. And thank you, you have given me much to think about.
And I think you are right. Most of the people who are greiving the hardest are the people from his generation that watched his rise and his fall from start to finish. I was born after his rise so I really dont know the full story. I came in during the tail end of his career and that mostly involved tabloids and court rooms.
But I can relate his story to Brittney Spears... the pop star of MY generation. Looking at Brittney you can see the signs that she is starting to crumble much the same way most child stars do. I worry for her quite often and I hope that she can get the help she needs before its too late.
Great response. Thank you very much... you have given me alot to think about.
@MoonGypsy (4606)
• United States
26 Jun 09
at least britney is not a child molester. lol. i respect the fact that she is not a freak like jacko, no matter what her probs are. hey, i think they should just throw jacko's body to a swarm of Paranas.
@rogue13xmen13 (14403)
• United States
27 Jun 09
You are not the only one. I cannot seem to mourn for him either. I loved his esrlier work, but his later work was not as great, and then there was all of the scandal with him and children and I just could not be a fan of his. I guess, if he had not been convicted of the crimes he committed, things would be different.
@LittleMel (8742)
• Canada
27 Jun 09
I don't believe he was molesting kids but if he did then it was just the darkest downfall a great artist can have
he was a dancer, a coreographer, a singer, a performer, a real talent
you're right rich or famous, a crime has to be punished
and that's what makes me sad
such a talent such a radical change
I guess people change, things change, and more often not for the better
@cbjones (1147)
• United States
27 Jun 09
I'm not having any trouble mourning Mike right now. I don't enough positive feelings toward the guy to mourn his passing. As a fan of music in general, I appreciate his contributions. He did some very interesting things musically. It's undeniable that he had a huge impact on a lot of musicians. Speaking on his impact is redundant, but that's all I've been hearing and seeing on the news networks for the past few days.
As a human being, I have no respect whatsoever for that man. We entire world watched Michael self destruct. He had everybody in the palm of his hand, ten he messed it up with one questionable stunt after another. I'm not even going to try and bite my tongue on this: I don't get how anybody can pay tribute to a child molester.
Don't give me that "he didn't have a childhood of his own, he just wanted to hang out with kids!" Hanging out would have been no big deal, it's the unsupervised sleepovers that got him into trouble. I guess if you sell a much of albums, that offsets anything horrible that you may have done throughout your life. I'm not giving mike a pass. His music was great, but he stuck out every time he had a chance to repair his image. I'm sure his family members have reason to mourn him right now, but I(and everybody else who was a part of his fanbase) didn't know him like that.
@MyTimeNow (48)
• United States
26 Jun 09
You are not a bad person for feeling and thinking the way you do. I also think he did wrong to those kids and I hope he is paying for it now. I loved his older music when he was the real MJ but after he got wierd his music started to suffer. I personally cant mourn for someone I dont personally know. I feel for his family cuz no matter what he was accused of or what he turned out to be, he was still their son, brother, dad, or whatever. I really dont understand why people are so upset about it. Yes he was a legend and he made some great music but how much more about the man do people really know. How can you mourn for the loss of someone you dont know? I dont mean to offend you or anyone else...just my 2 cents on the subject.
@ersmommy1 (12588)
• United States
26 Jun 09
Heck no that doesn't make you a bad person. I will miss his talent. I believe he was a very troubled person. However, I do find myself more saddened by the loss of Farrah.
@LadyMarissa (12148)
• United States
27 Jun 09
I'm finding it hard to mourn for him!!! I never understood why he was considered the King of Pop. Maybe because I was into Rock NOT Pop. He did maybe 3 songs that I really liked. The rest sucked in my eyes....oops ears He was such a freak that everybody loved to bash him. A friend said this morning that he had been hurt so bad by the bigotry & hatred that he had been very sad for such a long time & he was just getting his smile back. Even if he went to Hell, he is being treated BETTER than he was treated here on earth!!! My first husband believed that there is no such place as Hell. He said the soul is condemned to earth until it learns its lessons. So he always said living on earth was going to Hell & when you learned what you were put here to learn, the soul goes to Heaven. Up until that point the soul is simply sent back in another vessel(body) to learn what it missed the last time. That cycle continues until the soul learns & earns its wings.