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you know I had this long story telling you about my ex and the same signs that you were seeing. But I'll cut it short cause apparently my internet wants to cut out on me and lose all i write. My ex was this guy that I was with for 9 months. he lived with me for 3 of those months towards the end. Our relationship got worse when he moved in. You would think that it would get better by moving in together. He would want to go out with my best friend when she needed someone to ride with her. Well, I was okay with that until she started telling me some of the stuff he did like talking on the phone with these girls and they would be like 4 or 5 girls at one time that he was talking to. This last one he left me for was 46 years old and he was only 21. He tried to tell me that he couldn't get it up around me and everything else then i found stuff of him online and in chat rooms and pictures on my moms computer of things that only i should be seeing. He didn't want to be seen with me and that bothered me. He didn't want me around because he didn't want anyone else to know that he was with someone like me even though I'm a normal female and I was half his size in his weight so I know it wasn't that. if you kind of get what I'm talking about. Just be very careful if you decide to work it out with him. It may be something more than you can ever imagine. He supposedly said he loved me and I believed him. He supposedly said he stressed out because of not working and trying to find work and thats why he wouldn't be with me at night. I had a huge problem with wanting to start a new relationship with someone. I mean you work on it with someone and work hard to try to make things better for the both of you and it all falls apart when you realize he's not putting in the same effort that he's requiring of you. If you don't trust him, don't work it out. Trust is earned not demanded given. If he's broke your trust and faith in him then you'll never be able to fully trust him to not feel as though he's hiding something from you all. What good is to be with someone if you have to question everything that they do?