consciousness really?

Consciousness is only a spectator watching an action replay of events including our own actions. We become aware of our own actions after it has happened. Then our claim that our actions are willed and that of animals and plants are automatic and reactionary is based on a wrong understanding of how consciousness works. I hate to beleive that I am an automaton. May be like all other living and non living things in the universe we too are just a link in the evolutionary chain of cause and effect. If your finger accidentally touches a hot object the finger withdraws suddenly even before you realize you have touched it. Here it is very clear that conscious awareness is passive meaning you became conscious of the incident after it happened. We call it reflex action. But when we hit a moving ball with a bat intentionally we presume our conscious awareness of the incident was active meaning awareness and action was simultaneous. But studies have shown that in both cases the conscious awareness was passive which means what we feel as simultaneous awareness is in fact a delayed action replay.

The purpose maybe so that we can at least, at one point really feel that person's consciousness and feel whatever pain or joy that passes through him and relate to it. So that at one point, we become one with person in thoughts and a connection being made that will last.

I've been thinking about this lately and its made me think what parallel realities must be like but maybe we do experience this in our day to day life. The people we choose to engage with and the friends we choose--the power we give to them. You know if you entertain the company of a heroin addict then your more likely to live the same fate too because that is a reality you have chosen. You accepted someone else reality as your own then it will be your reality--thats just a scenario but I think we give and take realities every day and that is why if we really want to experience something,truly want it, not doubt it then it is possible to stand in someone else's shoes, just claim it as your own, live a conscious existence like it is your then it will become. I think our dream life is experiencing other lives parallel to our life 'now' but there much I still am trying to understand.