It's Hard But , I have to Be Strong..
By Payout
@payout (3794)
United States
July 3, 2009 1:12pm CST
Last time I post a discussion I was Planning to leave my Boyfriend a lone don't see him for awhile. Well I have been doing it but now and then I want to see him sooooo Bad but.. I can't let him see that side of me. Because he was taking me for grant it. He thinks that I will come back to him no matter what.
Well I'm showing him the complete opposite.. I want to see him and it's hard but.. I know he is going through more pain then I am He calls me text me saying I miss you want to see me.. I make it sound like I don't care.. I want him to see how it feels to feel like your not loved or the other person doesn't care.
He showing that he cares and he is afraid to lose me. But I have to be strong and I am Strong.. I know people will tell me to go with my gut and my heart but I I just want to hear people opinions and what now.. ? what should I do.. Let him suffer some more..
Tomorrow is the 4th of July and I go some where to this party every year.. Should I go and let him be a lone by himself. Or be there and keep him company so he wont be alone on that day..?
4 responses
@strawberrychocodahi (4818)
• Philippines
3 Jul 09
I can see that you are still young. And you have the opportunity to do what is important in life and share it with your family and relatives. You don't need to look for love, it will come your way if you know how to wait.
But if you keep on doing your own way, your own will, i guess that will take you into another heartache. Don't rush love or to be in love. As a person, set a goal you want to achieve in life.
Like finish your studies first and be a good person to everyone and specially care for your family and give back to them the care they have for you. Seek God in your life and I am sure He will direct you if you are sincere. Happy Mylotting.
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@payout (3794)
• United States
3 Jul 09
I know I'm very young but.. I wasn't looking for love at all Love found me and same thing happen to him we just ran into each other because of the people that we knew. Then eventually we fell in love with each other.
I know he still loves me and wants to be with me but he doesn't really want to change his ways. So thats why I did this to show him how it will be if I'm gone. and He is not with me.. He hates it he wants to see me but he wants me to angry and go do things that will get me mad.. and I just ignore it.
I don't want to show him that I care....
Its hard and it's confusing.. My family will get mad if I don't go and get sad and my boyfriend will get mad if I don't spend time with him..
@snowy22315 (181985)
• United States
3 Jul 09
I think you should invite him and tell him that you enjoy being around him, but you dont want to be taken for granted. You have been doing the right thing by maintaining your distance, but you probably don;t want him to get mad and and decide to cut you out of his life. If he starts doing it again I would cut him out for a longer period of time. Just my advice. Do what you feel is right.
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@meandmy3 (2227)
• United States
3 Jul 09
You need to follow your heart and listen to your head at the same time. You know if this relationship is a good thing for you or if it is a never ending disaster. If it is the later then you need to walk away and find someone whom will appreciate you all the time and treat you as if you are the king..
